I never thought about being side by side with light.
Just chasing quietly in the human world.
From the heartbeat of a 14-year-old to the habit of a 27-year-old,
He is the weakness hidden in my heart,
It is my retreat when I am sad and my direction when I am confused.
We are parallel lines that will never intersect,
But there was also a brief two-minute intersection.
I lost weight for him, went to work for him, and made a ten-year appointment for him.
Not to be remembered by him,
But for——
Because of this light, I live a brighter version of myself.
Don't ask for an encounter, don't ask for the result.
I am in the human world, living a good life and loving him slowly.
These long and tender years,
This is the most serious love letter I wrote to my youth.
Purpose: Grow in sober love and become a better self