[Why am I still alive? ]
[He is no longer here, what's the point of living for me? ]
[If I had been more determined, just a little bit, he wouldn't have left me]
[Why? Why is all this happening? Am I really a bad guy? ]
[…………]
The mug he left behind was still on the coffee table, and the faint lip marks on the edge of the mug had almost faded into mist.
I tried making coffee with double sugar like him, but all I could taste on my tongue was the bitter taste of rust.
His blue and white striped shirt is still hanging in the closet. On a sunny afternoon, there will be a faint scent of camphor, which is very similar to his breath when he whispered in my ear, "Xie Lin, let's escape to the south."
Now that he is gone, the unfinished words, the unfinished sea, and the unfinished winter together have become a rope around his neck.
Living alone, I am just dragging this body filled with ashes in the world without him, counting the seconds for a redemption that will never come.
………………
"Wangshu, I'm here to find you. Wait for me. You must wait for me."
Immediately, Xie Lin jumped up and quickly descended from the top of the 100-meter-high building.
The howling wind filled the ear canal, not singing, but whimpering - but in Xie Lin's ears, it was the strong wind singing for their love.
5.2 Seconds later, Xie Lin arrived on the first floor, but there was no smiling eyes, only the crowd's screams and the sharp screams of the ambulance, like a dull knife repeatedly cutting the nerves.
As I lay dying, fragments of memory stuck into my mind like shards of glass.
Purpose: Taking the emotional entanglement of Xie Lin and Shen Wangshu from being best friends to mortal enemies to falling in love but eventually becoming tragic as the core, in the intertwining of the throbbing of youth and the shackles of reality, it explores the struggle and demise of love under the weight of prejudice, grudges and reality, and also uses the tragedy of the two to ask questions. The harm caused by the original family and the crushing of individual emotions by worldly bonds also depicts the helplessness of young people who long for warmth in the dark, but are eventually trapped by fate. This love that grows in the cracks becomes a silent resistance to the cruel reality and a regret that is engraved in the bones and blood.