Gray Tower Notes (Crypto War)

Novels set in the war years always have too many last resorts. We cannot blame anyone in this situation harshly. Even if we have God's perspective, we cannot make the best solution in the worldly sense, and those who have experienced it personally are even more helpless. Whether Antemon loves Allen or not is an eternal question. I think two people must be in love. This kind of love is not only the sympathy between two geniuses, but also the little things in their daily relationship. But the love between two people is both vast and small. It's so vast that no one else can fit into their lives; it's so small that it can be given up without hesitation in overall choices. In the meat grinder of war, no matter how strong individual emotions are, they are nothing but a speck of ashes in history. The starting point of Andemon's love for Allen was Allen's unremitting pursuit, which allowed him to see Allen's indomitable quality. For a person who has been immersed in the intelligence world for too long, it is a fatal attraction. But it was precisely because of Allen's persistence and unwillingness to seek perfection in life that the tenacity with which Andemon fell in love became the source of his loss of Allen. In the end, Allen would rather leave his life in the gray tower than live with a broken memory. This is the life creed that Allen insists on, and it is also what Andemon first fell in love with. This is an almost cruel fate. Allen loves Andemon because of Andemon's unique temperament tempered by years of intelligence life - calm, profound, and in control of everything. But these qualities he loves are due to Andemon's instinct to put the interests of the country at the highest level. Like two sides of a coin, the person Allen loves is destined not to put him at the top. "Love and Hate Come from the Same Origin" is Allen's most realistic portrayal of Andemon. Allen's love and hatred for him both stem from one thing - the essence of an intelligence officer that makes Andemon charming and cruel. I always read online that some people feel that the HE ending of this book is not as good as BE. I think the ending is the climax of the book. If the story stopped at the Gray Tower, it would be just a tragic story; when the dust settles, when Andemon finds Allen who has lost his memory again, will he feel uneasy conscience and sleepless nights when facing his lover's face? The guilt for his lover tortured him, and the disappearing black notebook was like a sword of Damocles hanging over his head, and he didn't know when it would fall. Therefore, when he saw the notebook, he was first excited and then felt almost despairingly calm. The contents of that black notebook have always been talked about by us. I have read many fanfics, and most of them write about Allen discovering the contents of the notebook, and ultimately committing suicide to end this painful and deceived life. I think it doesn't matter whether there is anything in the notebook or not, the key is Alan. After so many years, is he still the same young man who would rather suffer than be numb? After so many years, will he choose to stay together, or has he learned to compromise? We have no way of knowing these. The author leaves the final outcome to Allen, letting him decide his own life, allowing him to truly choose his own destiny, and not be coerced by the tide of the times or Andemon's will. Everyone who participates in the war cannot escape from the war. Even though the war has ended long ago, the haze of war has never gone away. Allen is being monitored and is not allowed to go far; Andemon still lives in the cage he built, trapping himself and Allen. Those broken memories in the gray tower, those loves broken in the war, those helpless in the face of fate - they all sank to the bottom of history, forgotten and buried together with this love that burned to ashes.

I may think differently Even if the national interest is above all else, can't he be freed after everything? Right now, Allen can't see his mother, and he doesn't even know that his mother is Mrs. Custer. Allen can't shine in his favorite fields of cryptography and mathematics. He has lost his memory and wandered around London. He has lost his good friends and has nothing. But now that Andermon is successful, he still wants to tie up Allen? If my memory is correct, he told others "My lover is dead". Did he regard the current Allen as the substitute of the former Allen? You clearly love the old Allen, why did you lie to yourself? Isn't Ellen suffering enough? Isn't it painful to forget everything, even your own parents? He has dedicated so much to this country, why did he end up like this?

I have admired him for a long time, now I finally see him Early morning of November 1, 2025 The first thing I knew about this book was the most famous line, "Dear, have you seen the gray watchtower outside? The moment I saw it, I suddenly felt that I no longer love you." Before reading this article, I thought it was be. After reading it, I found that it is actually a bit like oe's he. The full text is from Allen's first point of view. Just like the name "Gray Tower Notes", it is a note written by Allen during the period when he was imprisoned on the top of the Gray Watchtower. Because it is Allen's first point of view, it is even more difficult to pry into the contribution of the other protagonist in their relationship. We can only understand Andermon's efforts from a few words. However, after reading the full text and thinking rationally, I still can't help but feel that Andermon is the source of most of Allen's painful memories. Undermon is too rational and loves his country too much, so on the premise that he loves Allen deeply, he will still use Allen to put Allen in danger. Allen died in repeated deceptions and despair, but was reborn in the love of Andemon. Some time ago, there was a popular type of cp, idealists and realists One person embraces ideals, has a pure heart, and is full of enthusiasm, but is often hit hard by the wall of reality. One, clarify the rules of reality, be clear-headed and calm Idealists envy realists for their clear understanding of world affairs and their ability to avoid being hit by reality; realists yearn for the enthusiasm and innocence of idealists. Allen and Andemon are exactly like these two. Allen is naive, enthusiastic, and has his own most authentic understanding and persistence of things. He loves his country, so he will still be passionate when Andermund tells him that the country does not trust him, and help solve the "mystery" behind Linton's back; He loved his mother, so after he learned that her mother did not die in the "accident" when he was young, but helped the Nazis invent the "mystery", he still firmly believed that Jane did not treason. Allen didn't understand why Jane helped the Nazis to defend a leader who was anti-human rights, but he still firmly believed that Jane did not treason, she just changed her allegiance. … I've talked too much about Allen (I can't help it, these are Allen's notes, I can't mention him less), let's talk about Andermon. Undermon is a typical realist. He loves Allen, but he is the boss of the Intelligence Agency. He has things he must do, so he will deceive Allen and use Allen as bait to achieve his own goals. He pities Allen's childish nature, but he also hates his childish nature. He pityed his mathematical genius and his talent in cryptography, and understood that he wanted to use his talent to show off his skills in this unprecedented cryptographic war. At the same time, he also hated him for putting himself in danger regardless of the consequences; he also hated him for never looking forward or backward in the choices he gave him, and only doing what he wanted. … The story of the two people has a tragic color embedded in their respective characters. In fact, as Allen himself said, there was nothing wrong with them, they just shouldn't have fallen in love in this war era. Before the idealistic eagle can truly spread its wings, it is imprisoned in the tower of reality. Genius is hard to find, ambition is hard to achieve The young eagle with broken wings hides its scars and pretends to forget the pain That blank notebook was a chance for a comeback that Allen gave Andermon, and it was also an exemption for himself. Although emotionally I still feel that dying in a tower might be better for Allen However, for Allen, who is striving for peace, he may want to see the post-war world more "My dear, I try to forget the past But when I see the gray watchtower, I can't help but recall those despairs. My chest still hurts, but I think it hurts you too Peace is really good" (Only my personal opinion. If you disagree with my opinion, please do not attack me. A thousand readers have a thousand Hamlets. Rational discussion is welcome) (I like this article very much and have been fascinated by it for a long time) Come here for the fame and return with a full load (Broken Jinjiang, I have to verify before I can comment. I couldn't see the verification code clearly. I vomited and it took several days to send it out.)

Many people say that Endermund killed Allen in the end, and he should not continue to pester Allen. If the ending is really like this, then I will be even more unwilling. Keep entangled, and always be happy. No matter whether the memory is restored or not, a person is worried all his life, and a person is silent about the truth. How can it not be considered love? Love and pain are intertwined. Although there are countless ways to separate each other, I continue to entangle because I love you.

It is worth noting that Allen's experience actually had several foreshadowings. 1. From "almost losing the trust of Whitehall" to narrowly escaping from the isolation review, Andermont relied on "selling himself out", personally investigating the underworld, and personally disposing of his fiancée to regain trust. When inviting Allen, C mentioned that his parents completely lost trust because of a letter from an enemy friend. The Eagle Incident is the recycling of two foreshadowings. The person in charge had been exposed before arriving in London, but once his identity was made public afterwards, Allen exploded. The two have been friends for many years and have extensive correspondence records. Allen is the head of Office No. 1, So this is a dead end anyway. Allen must "get involved personally" in advance, "actively" participate in the Intelligence JV's Falcon Project, personally "dispose" of his old friend before the review mechanism is activated, and fulfill his obligation of "British interests above all else." Therefore, Andermon, who was in charge of the operation, had to insist afterwards that the young eagle was dead and that Allen could finally return to Plimpton. 2. The task of developing the MI machine was first handed over by the Prime Minister to C, who then handed it over to Allen, bypassing Andermon. After the task was completed, it was the Prime Minister who finally signed Allen's opinion on how to deal with it. After the war, the machine was destroyed to keep it secret. Of the three developers who knew about it, one was probably inseparable from the situation all his life, one had his memory deleted, and the other was a greasy cable factory worker (Raphael was mysophobic). A 3. Allen and Andermont are the comparison of C and Jane back then. The gray tower is the only variable. In order to prevent the news that "Mystery" had been deciphered from leaking out, JV abandoned the entire city of Coventry for this purpose, but until the end, they did not deal with Allen, who controlled the heart of "Mystery" but was inextricably linked to NC. Allen finally survived, but he couldn't leave with the memory of "mystery". In front is Andermon's bottom line, and behind is the bottom line of the senior management. If one party breaks it, the agreement will be invalid. In the end, if Allen successfully escapes from the Gray Tower, Whitehall will have reason to intervene. After all, they are originally afraid that Allen, who has regained his freedom, will run abroad like his mother. 4. When introducing the code name Z earlier, Arnold said that he would brainwash people who had to leave and who really had too much information. In other words, even if Allen does not enter the Gray Tower, he will probably have to get such an injection if he works like this until the end of the war. Therefore, Raphael did not "return to his previous life" as Andermon said. The memory-erasing drug was stolen from the German JZ camp, but their senior officials did not believe in the efficacy of the drug and demanded that Young Eagle must come and deal with Allen in person. Arnold also hinted that "they are still in your brain and have not been lost." The real drug was probably not LSD. It was the person who made Allen finally decide to throw away the recoverable notes.

I finished watching it in mid-May 2023. Every time I look back, after seeing the plot before being imprisoned in the black tower in the later stage, I will start to feel uncomfortable, cry, and feel sorry for Allen. . [Split] Allen made his choice then. He has lost too much, even if he can only recall happy or painful memories from the past, together with the cryptographic knowledge in his mind, he will be forever imprisoned in the gray tower. In the physical book, Arnold said, "None of us is the winner, and none of us can escape punishment." Andermund's thoughts are too deep, and so is his love. Allen told Andermon that it was not his fault, nor his fault. They were wrong because they should not have met in this war era. Did Andermund ever think that as long as Allen forgets this past and never thinks about it again, thinking that they met in a peaceful time, they will have a different ending, and feel that they will be happy until the end of their lives. Even if only he can remember the memories of their relationship before the war, it doesn't matter. It's just that there may be a sudden sting in the heart at a certain moment, and it feels uncomfortable for a while. It's nothing, nothing. He gave what he thought was happiness to Allen. Will he think of the flamboyant young man under the apple tree outside the Cambridge Library at a certain moment when Allen smiled at him? Will he regret making such a decision at some point? I don't know. He made a mistake, and now he has asked for enough. He hopes that Allen will live and stay with him happily and carefree. I can't help but think about it, my understanding is as above. This feeling is really complicated for me.

The abuse makes me feel uncomfortable. I hope that Arnold and Allen can fall in love in parallel time and space.

After reading it over and over again, Haiyun is really powerful and strong, not only meaningful to Wu Xing, she is the embodiment of human bravery and tenacity. Even if it only exists in words, the large writing style shows a real hero and his spirit to our readers very well. [Come on] [Come on] [Come on] Call the best hero Haiyun It's a pity that I can't see the outline of the article. [Crying] But as long as I still remember Haiyun, I will always look forward to her radiant future [empty bowl] [empty bowl]

I don't quite remember when I first read this children's book, not to mention ten years, but six or seven years ago. I was still young at that time, so I don't know where I picked up this book, and on which little website (Biquge or something else, I didn't know about Jinjiang at that time, so I just randomly searched for books to read, and I just read whatever I saw was good, and I didn't care about anything else, as long as it was attractive enough. The author even found out that the ending was not satisfactory after reading it) In my mind, this should be the first online work I have read from a first-person perspective other than literary works (because I have never liked reading first-person stories, and even if I have read them so far, I have not seen many third-person stories). The author remembers that my strong interest in cryptography started from this book. I wonder if other people have had similar experiences. This is because the book is a very good book with relevant and informative content, and it tells interesting things that may not be exposed to much, or may sound boring. Yes, I don't mean that it's interesting, I just mean that the feeling suddenly appeared, and the hobbies related to it naturally emerged, as well as the method to learn more about it. For example, I read a book related to finance some time ago. The author, who had never been interested in this aspect, started to pay attention to the financial circle... And plunged into the stock market... I won't mention this. Continuing to talk about this book, the reason why the author particularly liked it at the time was that its unique writing style and selected themes were rare—— "He misses the clear blue sky in Cambridge, and the lover who bent his eyes and smiled under the apple tree outside the library..." (Attached is a sentence that he has always remembered clearly.) It was basically difficult to find a replacement at that time (when I first finished reading it, it was hard to let go, and I didn't want to read it again. I searched frantically for similar ones, but there were none, or the author couldn't find them myself. I don't know if they exist now, and I haven't searched for them much since.) I'm not sure if the memories gave it a charm, so that I was still thinking about it long after reading it, but because I was busy with studies at that time, I didn't have time to put it away and then taste it. There is also Yeats's poem "When You Get Old" that appears in the article. I didn't know Yeats at that time, but I just thought the English-translated sentences in the appendix of the article were beautiful. The most unforgettable thing is actually the profound background of the story and the complicated emotions in the article (if I had said it a few years ago, I would definitely have talked about it, but now it's not impossible to say it, but it is definitely not as fresh in my memory as before)... Well, actually I only remember the feeling it gave me after reading it for the first time. It was very heavy, like dragging in a quagmire. You have no way to evaluate whether what someone did is right or wrong. You cannot look at the people in the article as if they were a frivolous thing, nor can you just use a few adjectives to summarize their personality. It is inconvenient to define, and of course it is inconvenient to comment on them, leaving it to other subsequent readers to look at them. The author originally thought that I could always remember this book and was deeply impressed, but I suddenly opened it today and wanted to say something, but suddenly found that I had forgotten many things. When I was writing, I remembered some of the feelings I had when I read it for the first time, including the sudden sadness I felt after reading it for the first time. But there are still some things that I can't remember clearly. I am leaving a comment today because I am afraid that my impression will become less and less clear in the future, so I will talk about what I can remember so that I can come back and read it later: Oh, it turns out that I have thought about it this way. As for why the first time is always mentioned in the above content, it is because it brought the deepest feeling to the author for the first time. Even if I bought the physical book and read it again after a few years, I may still vaguely remember the plot and not have as deep feelings as the first time, or maybe the memory is beautifying the book. Speaking of physical books, I also have an interesting memory. I just bought it and even though I didn't want to read it, I took it to a classmate from school to read (the classmate also reads all types of books, but he doesn't like to read the ending where the yin and yang are separated) and told him that everyone is alive in the ending. After reading it, he looked heavy for a while and became unhappy. (To finger) I suddenly opened this book before going to bed. I scanned the title: Oh, this book, but I couldn't remember the content, so I suddenly became energetic and wanted to write something. Unfortunately, it was a bit too late, so I wrote in a fragmented way. I just wrote whatever came to my mind without organizing the logic. After I finished writing, I read it over several times. I felt that it was not very good, and I didn't want to change it. It was not anything serious at all. I'll think of the rest later. 2026.8.2 Stay Time flies so fast in the blink of an eye.

When Alan Custer was a student, he fell in love with Andermund Wesson under an apple tree. He took a bite of a poisonous apple soaked in vagina... This is not the first time that a genius from King's College, Cambridge died after taking a poisonous apple [crying] [crying]

After reading the whole book, I really couldn't get over it for a long time. The author wrote it really well. I see a lot of discussions among friends in the comment area, and I found that there are several controversial points. 1. The first one is to use. Throughout the whole article, I think Allen's misfortune is that he is always deceived and kept in the dark, whether it is the spy eagle who is attracted to him or the Andemon he later loves deeply, especially the use of Andemon. My opinion is that he really has no choice. If there are other ways, why would he not want to use Allen? Pushing it out, but it was World War II. Under the war, only a country has a family. He could not put his selfishness above Guo Jia, but no matter how reasonable the reason was, it was hurt, and its essence would not change due to external reasons. Therefore, although Andemeng had difficulties, he was not wronged in every case. So some people say that their love is a sacrifice of the times. I really agree with it. It is so accurate. 2. The second point is the ending. I actually saw that Andemon had a heart attack after hurting Allen and then pursuing him lightly and calmly after erasing his memory. But when I came back and thought about it, was he really that calm and okay? This is written from Allen's perspective, so it seems that Andemon's emotions are suspended without a waypoint. If viewed from Andemon's perspective, he is indeed very painful, even though The author did not describe too much the scene of Andemon chasing Allen, but we can see through some details, such as Andemon hugging Allen and not letting go, saying that he loves him over and over again like a lunatic. He hasn't caught him yet. Is it yours? Just hug him and kiss him. The heartbreak is real. I even wanted the author to torture Andemon cruelly, and even wanted to see Andemon go crazy after Allen left, but I knew that was probably impossible because Andemon couldn't. I will let Allen go, which is quite suffocating. In fact, many friends said that if Andemon hurt Allen, he should stop pestering him. In fact, when I first watched it, I thought Andemon was too cheap. But I want to say that this is the idea of ​​normal people. It should be noted that Andemon is not a normal person. He is the boss of the intelligence agency and the head of the secret service. You want him to suddenly have a conscience and realize that I am sorry for Allen, so I Is it possible that we shouldn't pester him? He is just a lunatic and his morals are not that high, especially since his long-cherished wish is to be with Allen. He already has a lunatic-like paranoia about Allen, but his madness is no longer reflected in front of Allen. Therefore, in the author's extra chapter, you can see Andemon's gentle image of harmlessness. I have to worry about Allen. The person in front of you can really pretend. I thought about it for a long time and thought about it. I really love this novel. I hope to see the author come up with some short stories and extras if I have the chance. In general, regret and hope coexist.

Allen was not happy in the end. After losing his memory, he became a substitute for his past self. Allen would sometimes feel that Andemon was looking for someone else through him, but he would not know that this other person was his past self. Is a person still himself when he loses his memory? [Lie flat] [Lie flat]

"We almost got together." "Which point." "A time of peace."

I have admired the name for a long time, but now I can finally see him

I had heard about this book a long time ago and saw some fragments. I said at the time that if I read it, I would probably like this book very much. Finally, this summer I came to read Notes from the Gray Tower. As soon as I clicked on the catalog to read the price, I first noticed that the red article at the bottom was locked. Well, it was unimaginable, so I cut it. I changed the software and went to find the full version. When I saw Allen's ending, I felt bad. I thought Allen would stay in the Gray Tower forever and he would not give up everything. In the end, Andermont made the choice for him. I didn't like this. It seemed that life did not belong to me. It was as difficult for me to understand as Allen. War is not Is it over? Isn't the role of the Intelligence Agency here too? Why can't we let Allen out? After seeing Allen lose his memory, I thought of his notes. If he finds it, if he finds this note, all the problems about Andermont and his mother can be solved, including reading outside the book. I want to die, this is the first book, I crazily hope that Andermon should learn a lesson, I don't like Andermon, his feelings for Allen are not wholehearted, and it does not meet my expectations. I thought he would give everything to love Allen, although I can feel that he also loves Allen, but I am still not satisfied. This is a novel written 15 years ago. When the Gray Tower Notes was completed, I was three years old and came to the city from the countryside to attend kindergarten. I thought I should learn to read early (preferably not long after I was born), so that when I was three years old, I could read a god-like article and remember it forever. The author is great. I am very heartbroken now, and I am going to find a Mary Sue to ease my mood.

Andermund is not a good lover. He is worthy of the country and sorry for Allen. Alas [crying] If the second half does not happen, I hope Allen can be with Edgar. You will be my model and I will often draw you.

3 Years have passed and I still can't get out

Compared to what happened after separation, I think this may be a relatively better ending, but I don't like the fall of a genius. The only thing I'm glad about is that people around me still know what he used to be.

Even if you give up, you still have to finish this story! @π@

I actually didn't abandon the article. I finished reading it? It's really incredible!

I really want to read the previous episodes. The first time I read it was the physical book of a classmate. There were a lot of edits. At that time, I thought Andermon was weird (actually a bit sick), and I felt that I couldn't bear it. The physical book had no sexual relationship. I felt that Andermon's feelings for Allen were very pure and restrained. After reading the second time, I felt that it should be more. I felt that Andermon had hurt Allen both sexually and mentally. But it would be okay if Allen was happy. The problem is that I can't find him now. In the previous episode, based on the few words found in the search, we learned that from Andermont's perspective, his lover had died in the flames of war. Is this true? [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] Is Allen really happy? [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying] [Crying]

Your writing is very good, and I am very happy to read it. This is the best. It is the best if readers can read happily. Thank you.

I will give everyone a good look today

Dear, can you play the final chapter of "Into Mr. Oda"?

Shu Huang, please help me, read and book them all

I finished reading it in one go Mr. Qin Niu

[Orange Candy] Got it [Purple Candy] kswl finished chasing!

[Orange Candy] I got it. This cookie is what I should eat!!!

The ending is "Spreading Flowers", a very cute little article, a sweet fairy tale

It's such a novel unlimited flow! My wife is really imaginative, and her emotional line is also very shocking. I cried several times while watching it [ bursting into tears ]