First person, Be, Narcissus.
Also known as "My Spring"
"I kissed my seventeen-year-old self in the mirror,
Put the ring on your middle finger on the scar on your ring finger.
He is my light hidden in the cracks,
They are flowers that grow from my sick bones,
It's what I spend my whole life trying to keep
Another me. "
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Lin Yan is a painter with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. He falls in love with the schizophrenic boy Ayan. That was the seventeen years he hid. He replaced the ring he bought on his middle finger with his ring finger and fell in love with Ayan. In the end, he used nail clippers to sharpen his wrists and cut the artery with his own hands, binding the two of them together forever.
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"In medicine, this is called 'schizophrenia'.
Others say this is 'crazy',
Only I know,
He is what I spend half my life on,
The lover I raised.
——Lin Yan's medical record page, June 17, 2017"
Purpose: Self-salvation