Introduction:
Chen Budu lived for seventeen years, and he deeply realized the true meaning of his name: there is nothing to be overcome between people.
She has seen her parents' bad debt since she was a child - it is true when she loves, and it is also true when she hates. So she didn't believe it for a long time. I don't believe in "forever", I don't believe in "the only one", I don't believe in "two people can be good together".
But she is not desperate. She reads people who figure it out. She knows that life is meaningless, but people can choose how to live.
She watched from the shore, but would not go down.
So she plays. She is the brightest one in the crowd. She knows who likes her and will hang on to them without rejecting or accepting them. Occasionally, I confess my love randomly, and after saying it, I should laugh and play with it, but don't take it seriously at all.
Friends call her a scumbag. She thought for a while: Right.
But that's outside.
In it, when she couldn't sleep every night, she would lie alone in bed and think about things that no one could talk to.
For example, is the person pushing the stone up the mountain really happy?
For example, is she watching from the shore, or is she unable to get to the shore at all?
She never asked these questions because no one could answer them.
Until one day, a little kid from an unknown family was driven into the corridor by his father and saw Chen Budu and said something
——"Why are your eyes always looking inward, but you can't seem to see the reason?"
Damn, I can remember these words forever. Chen Budu thought.
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Chen Budu*Xu Lin
sc 1V1 non-traditional campus novel, non-salvation
Growth is one's own business
Intention: amor fati love destiny