The first time I met Shen Yandong was in the dormitory building where the epidemic was under lockdown.
We were the only two boys left on the entire floor. Late at night, his head rested on my forehead, his earphones were half-disconnected from mine, and his breath fell on my face.
I thought that was the beginning of love.
Later, he played in a double queue with another girl in the game, game after game. I stayed on the bridge from dusk until late at night, and the river wind blew my bones.
On the day he was discharged from the surgery, I chased his back and shouted "Xiao Shen". He heard it but didn't look back. I fainted in the rain and woke up to find that I had been deleted as a friend.
——It turns out that some people appear in your life just to teach you what "loss" means.
In college, I stuffed myself into three clubs, the hosting team, the radio station, and the Red Theory Club. I was too busy to think about him. At the end of the month, I only had 20 yuan left for living expenses. When I bought cold noodles for 6 yuan, my payment failed, and the people in line behind me had their eyes like needles.
Squatting in the rain to charge, my phone lights up and a new message pops up on Soul.
"Hello, I also like the song you shared."
That person's name is Gu Zhao, a junior at a prestigious school, and his mood is as stable as a pool of stagnant water.
I said that I had been abandoned by others, and he said, "It was because he didn't know how to cherish me."
I said I was sick, and he said, "Take your time, I'll stay with you."
I said I didn't dare to love anymore, and he said——
"Then you betroth yourself to me, so you don't have to pay back the 250 yuan."
I thought he was joking.
Until one rainy day, he asked me out and said he had something to say. I bought milk tea and burned my hand, but I endured it without saying a word. He said "we are not suitable", I rushed into the rain, and heard him calling my name from behind before I fainted.
When I woke up, he was lying next to the bed, still holding my hand.
I asked: "Can you not leave me?"
His eyes turned red and he said, "I won't leave you until I die."
Later I learned that his father had compared him with others since he was a child, saying that he was incompetent, useless, and not like a man. He grew up in such denial, but gave me all his tenderness.
——It turns out that when someone loses someone, it is so that you can meet the truly right person.
Intention: In the cold world, be each other's last body heat. Love does not make a person perfect, but gives two imperfect people the courage to walk together.