Bipolar Girl: My Two Marriages and a Rebirth

I used to be a Pisces girl who loved literature and art. I loved writing since I was a child. I served as a Chinese class representative for many years. In the eyes of my teachers, I was a very talented literary girl with a bright future. In my sophomore year, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder due to an overdose of diet pills, and my originally bright life suddenly fell into darkness. On the road to fighting the disease, I endured difficulties that are unimaginable to ordinary people: I was forcibly sent to a mental hospital by my strong and violent mother, lost my freedom, and was forced to receive treatment; my first love left me cruelly after learning about my illness, which dealt a heavy blow to my already fragile self; after I was discharged from the hospital, I was confined at home by my family, and I was eager to escape from my oppressive family of origin. In order to seek relief, I chose a flash marriage and went to Chengdu with my boyfriend, whom I had known for only one month, to start a seven-year marriage. In order to repay the other party's debt, I put down my dignity and entered an unfamiliar entertainment venue to make a living, supporting my family with my youth and forbearance. With my own efforts, I got out of the slump and became a corporate investment manager. I won the top ten in the Miss World Sichuan competition and bought my first home on my own. But in the end, this unbalanced relationship still ended in divorce. I never thought that my second marriage would be a deeper abyss. I married a colleague who seemed to have good conditions, but I suffered long-term humiliation from my powerful mother-in-law, frequent domestic violence and cheating from my husband, and even almost lost my life. During the six years of marriage, I became pregnant and gave birth to a child, was ostracized from the workplace, and carried huge debts. I finally left the house with scars all over my body. After experiencing the torture of mental illness, the constraints of my original family, and the severe trauma of two broken marriages, I was not struck down by fate. Now, at the age of 37, I have become an investment manager of a state-owned enterprise. I have reconciled with the past, coexisted with the disease, and regained my childhood dream of being a writer. I wrote this book with my half-life of blood, tears and growth. This is a true and honest autobiography of a woman's growth, recording a girl's entire process from falling to the bottom to self-salvation, from desperate struggle to Nirvana and rebirth. I would like to use my own experience as a lamp to illuminate everyone who is in trouble and longs for hope, and tell all readers who are moving forward in the darkness: as long as you don't give up, there will be dawn at the end of the darkness. Purpose: This book is based on the author's real life. It tells the story of a Pisces girl who has loved literature since childhood. After encountering multiple blows such as bipolar disorder, control by her native family, two failed marriages, domestic violence and debt, she still did not give up on herself, and finally achieved the whole process of counterattack in the workplace, spiritual independence, and soul rebirth. The work aims to break the public's prejudice and discrimination against mental illness, reveal the important influence of family of origin, intimate relationships, and women's self-worth in life, and encourage readers who are in trouble and encounter trauma to face their pain, accept the past, and bravely save themselves. This book does not sell suffering or exaggerate tragedy, but conveys strength through real experience - no matter how much darkness fate gives, people always have the right to make a new choice and stand up again. At the end of darkness, there must be dawn.