I'm like a pawn in the corner of the chessboard,
And he is the handsome man who sits in the center and is surrounded by stars.
Ever since he said to me in the first year of junior high school, "If you don't understand, you can ask me."
I followed his light for twelve years.
Doing questions, solving questions, growing up, accompanying you,
As a brother, I hide my feelings that I dare not express openly.
I thought that if I moved forward step by step, I would always be able to reach him.
I didn't understand until later.
ENTJs are naturally decisive and have clear goals.
He protects important people in command;
An unimportant person, no matter how long you stay with him, is just a chess piece that can be discarded at any time.
Those ten minutes when his ex-girlfriend came back,
He said softly, "It's most comfortable for us to be friends."
Like a double-gun general, hitting the general from every corner, there is no way to hide.
It turns out that I am not an exception, not a preference, not the only one.
I am just his retreat when he is in trouble and his background when he is stable.
They are old clothes that he has worn for many years and are comfortable but do not need to be cherished.
I had this secret love for twelve years.
From Donghuan Primary School to school uniforms and suits,
From cautious to full of joy,
From full of expectations to complete failure.
Finally, I gently said:
You win, I surrender.
——ISTP secret love record
——In the name of brother, I love you for one game and lose everything.
Purpose: This article uses Chinese chess as the core metaphor to tell the story of a twelve-year one-way secret love and self-reconciliation.
From the protagonist's low self-esteem and admiration when he was young, to his sobriety and withdrawal as an adult, he completely presents the heartbeat, persistence and final relief of an ordinary person in an "unequal relationship".