My Mother Hated Me for Twenty Years. Why Would She Go Crazy After I Died?

My mother took off my clothes and made me stand outside the door to reflect, just because I asked my stepfather for a new skirt. She thought I wanted to wear a skirt to attract my stepfather's attention.   I stood outside the door shivering from the cold while holding the diagnosis sheet of severe depression. I just want to see the doctor decently, and wearing a skirt once is my last wish in this life. Mission: Mother's love is always the most beautiful love in the world