At the age of 38, I am a middle school mental health teacher. I stand on the podium every day and listen to children telling me about the confusion of growing up - the anxiety hidden in the test papers, the confused heartbeat, and the confusion of trying to catch up with others but being unable to do so. It always reminds me of Qingcheng No. 1 Middle School in 2009 and myself at that time.
That summer, when I met Mu Wen, I thought it was the most passionate heartbeat in my life. I tried my best to catch up in her footsteps, even impulsively repeating a grade. However, it was only after many years that I realized that that preference was just a false projection of my ideal self. Just like every child I meet today, they are playing games with themselves in the fog of adolescence.
I wrote this story not to give rigid psychological advice, but to hide the warmth of psychology into the daily lives of teenagers - into the singing of evening self-study, endless notebooks, corridors with fallen sycamore leaves, and every heartbeat and tug, confusion and growth.
For teenagers, I hope you can see your own confusion in the story, understand those unspeakable emotions, and know that you are never alone; for middle-aged people, I hope this review can take you to relive the wind in the midsummer of that year, think of yourself at that time, and gently reconcile with the regrets of youth.
The wind in Qingcheng will disperse, and the young people will grow up. Those heartbeats and confusions at that time will eventually become the key for us to understand ourselves.
Purpose: From the perspective of a 38-year-old adolescent mental health teacher looking back, the story of youth in Qingcheng in 2009 is told, focusing on the protagonist Wan Yankang's heartbeat, confusion and self-pull, and hiding the psychological confusion and growth core of adolescents in daily narratives. It does not give rigid psychological advice, but through youth group portraits and personal growth, it allows teenagers to see the shadow of their own emotions, allows middle-aged people to relive their youth memories, and conveys the core of "understanding oneself is growth". It combines youthful nostalgia and psychological warmth, pays homage to "The Boy Here", and contains Jin Yong's campus intertextual Easter eggs.