The lights in the dialysis room are always pale, so white that people forget time.
That day was different.
I heard someone playing the piano. It's "Time Cooks the Rain".
Before I was seventeen, I often listened to this song.
But that afternoon, the sound of the piano came from the end of the corridor, and I stood there until my legs went numb and the nurse called my name.
The boy playing the piano is about my age. When he saw me, he ran away like a frightened bird.
Later I found out that his name was Lin Yu. It's the bed next to mine.
He handed me a bottle of water-soluble C, saying that he was rewarded by the nurse for playing the piano in the hospital.
We gradually became familiar with each other.
During dialysis, he would secretly show me the cartoons he drew, which showed two little people lying on the clouds and basking in the sun. When my blood pressure was low, he would quietly put his hand on the back of my hand and just leave it there without saying a word.
Once he asked me, where do you want to go most?
I said I don't know.
He said, then we are not going anywhere, but right here.
I don't know what he means. But when I got home that night, I lay in bed and thought about it for a long time.
Where can two uremic patients go?
However, when his eyes look at me, I often think -
Then live in the moment.
No matter whether the dialysis machine is running or not, no matter whether the creatinine is high or not, no matter where we are tomorrow.
Just today. Right now. This is the dialysis room. At this moment he handed me water-soluble C.
Two men.
Two uremic patients.
Two people sentenced to life imprisonment at the age of seventeen.
What we have stolen is life itself.
Purpose: Live in the present