When the Evening Breeze Caresses the Apricot Leaves

In the autumn when she was sixteen, Lin Zhixia opened the door of the remedial classroom and saw a quiet boy sitting in the last row by the window. His name is Shen Yu, he wears black-rimmed glasses, reads a poetry collection, and walks with a slight pause on his right foot. She sat in front of him by accident, and a three-year "front and back table" tacit understanding began. They have almost no communication offline, but talk about everything on WeChat. He helps her with math, and she helps him with English; she complains that the Chinese teacher's lectures are too jumpy, and he makes up for it with precision: "One class can talk about five unrelated topics." Until one day, she discovered that he had also been to the desert starry sky where she had been - at the same time, in the same starry sky. It turns out that they had already experienced the same wind. But stories of youth often stop at "who speaks first." She saw him smiling happily with his junior high school classmates and angrily agreed to someone else's pursuit; he thought she had found someone better and swallowed his love back in his heart. In the last geography subject of the college entrance examination, at the entrance of the examination room, they looked at each other and said the only words: "Come on." "You too." Later, she was admitted to Tsinghua University and he went to Ordinary 211. " When the evening breeze caressed the apricot leaves, she finally understood: some people appear in your life just to make you regretful. And regret itself is the most beautiful appearance of youth. Concept: 1. The regretful aesthetics of youthful secret love. The novel tells the story of a youthful secret love that "almost ended up together". The two people obviously liked each other, and there were obviously countless moments where they could talk, but because of their respective timidity, sensitivity, and misunderstanding, they finally passed each other. This is not a story about "lovers eventually get married", but a story about "lovers eventually become regrets". It wants to tell readers: not everything you like can be said, and not everything you miss can be repeated, but those unspoken words and unheld hands also truly existed and are equally worthy of being remembered. 2. Shyness and sensitivity are the truest aspects of youth. The reason why Lin Zhixia and Shen Yu missed each other was not because they didn't love each other, but because they loved each other too much. "The more I like him, the more I am afraid" - afraid that he is not good enough for her, afraid that he will not be able to be her friend even if he says it out loud, afraid that she will find out that he is not that powerful. Lin Zhixia "the more she cares, the more sensitive she becomes" - when she saw him smiling at others, she thought that was what he really looked like and that she was not special enough. This shyness and sensitivity are precisely the truest emotional state of youth. As adults, we have learned to hit the ball straight and take the initiative, but we can never regain that throbbing feeling of "my heart beats faster when I see him, but I don't dare to take another look." 3. Ultimate intention: Missing is another form of fulfillment. The end of the novel does not allow the two to reunite, nor does the "next life" come true, but stops at "some people, missing out, will last a lifetime." This is not pessimism, but an understanding of youth: some good things will be remembered forever precisely because they are not obtained. If they had really been together back then, they might have quarreled, broken up, or become passers-by in each other's lives. But because she missed it, he will always be the boy who quietly flipped through the books in her memory, and she will always be the girl with the high ponytail in his heart. Missing it will make this relationship stay at its most beautiful forever. 4. Imagery: Apricot leaves and wind Apricot leaves: Symbolizes the passage of time. Green and yellow, yellow and fall, fall and grow again - just like youth, it comes again and again, but it is no longer the same batch. Wind: Symbolizes the touch of fate. "When the evening breeze caresses the apricot leaves", it is the moment when fate gently touches their lives. When the wind comes, the leaves move; when the wind passes, the leaves fall. They were lightly touched by fate, and then each drifted in different directions. 5. A word for readers In everyone's youth, there is a "Shen Yu" or "Lin Zhixia" - the person you have secretly liked for a long time but never dared to speak. This book is a love letter to them and a farewell letter to myself.