Lu Chenyao and I have been together for almost twelve years.
From that cautious confession in the high school corridor to now, when we are almost thirty years old, we have gone through a whole youth.
He is Alpha and I am Omega.
In the past, the way he looked at me was so soft that it could drip water. The pheromones always wrapped me gently, and even if I frowned, he would coax him for a long time. Our days were dull and stable, and I always thought we would stay like this for the rest of our lives.
But I don't know since when, he has changed.
He began to come home late, carrying an unfamiliar Omega aura.
He stopped touching me, stopped saying another word to me, and didn't even bother to look at me. I was so panicked, but I lied to myself over and over again that he was just too tired.
Until that day, the quarrel broke out.
I asked him with red eyes: "What's wrong with you? We weren't like this before."
Lu Chenyao stood in the center of the living room, his eyes as cold as winter ice, and his tone was so harsh that it made me tremble:
"We are no longer what we used to be. Look at you, you are old and boring, and I have long been tired of it. In what way do you compare to the Omega who is with me now?"
Those words were like a knife, piercing my heart.
I froze in place and even forgot to shed tears.
Without looking at me again, he picked up his coat, turned around and left. The sound of the door closing hit my heart hard, as if all the love we had for more than ten years had been shut out by him.
I guarded the empty house alone from dawn to dusk, and never waited for him to come back.
Later, I went to his parents' house in a daze to ask where he had gone.
As soon as the two old men saw me, they burst into tears.
They gently pushed a stack of medical certificates in front of me.
In the late stage, time is running out.
It turns out that it's not that he doesn't love me anymore, it's because he's afraid of dragging me down.
He was deliberately cold, deliberately pretended to be in another relationship, and deliberately said the most hurtful words. He just wanted me to hate him and wanted me to live well after he left.
He uses the cruelest way to hide the deepest tenderness.
But he doesn't know that he is always the only one in my world.
How can I live well without Lu Chenyao?
I held the photo of us together and gently closed my eyes.
Lu Chenyao, you are too selfish.
You think pushing me away is for my own good.
But I just want to be with you, even if it's only for one day.
In the next life, don't push me away again.
OK.
Intention: Mistaking pushing away for deep love turns into regret