Entering the Wilderness with Sincerity

I am Song Cijin, an anti-narcotics policeman from the Lingyue District Anti-Narcotics Brigade. In the past, I always thought that I would find a gentle girl step by step, save money to buy a house with a balcony, and live out my life in a life full of fireworks. But this understanding was completely shattered on a rainy night in late autumn last year - I stared at the tips of informant Lu Huaizhi's rain-wet hair, and for the first time I fell in love with another man. This secret longing grew like a vine in my heart, and I even began to secretly wonder if I was sick. What I didn't expect was that on New Year's Eve, when a girl confessed her love to him, I felt mixed emotions and was very unhappy, so I took his mobile phone to help him reject her. When he happened to bump into me, the atmosphere was a little tense for a moment, but at that moment, we hugged each other naturally. But this sweetness didn't last long. We were exposed during a subsequent undercover mission. In order to block the bullets fired by drug dealers for me, he was forced to the ground and dragged away. Later I learned that he risked half his life in order to keep my information and give me a chance to survive. Fortunately, those beasts hadn't killed him yet, so I managed to spare him a breath, and I escaped... I had to save him. I rushed back to the team, and without even having time to catch my breath, I grabbed Lin Ren and lay down with him on the table covered with satellite images to urgently discuss the rescue plan. At this moment, the drone responsible for high-altitude reconnaissance transmitted real-time footage. We finally located the drug dealer's den, but the scene on the screen made me instantly red-eyed - Lu Huaizhi was tied to the wall with a thick hemp rope, and the old wounds on his body had not yet scabbed and new blood had been added. What made me almost collapse was that there were blood-stained syringes scattered around his hands, and someone was forcing him to take drugs. The next day, I took the entire team to the stronghold. I couldn't calm down at all while staring at the action briefing in my hand, so I led the team and rushed in to solve the two drug dealers. Just when I was about to find Lu Huaizhi, the big drug lord Wu Ze shot me twice in the leg and threatened to trap us all here, asking me to trade Lu Huaizhi's life for a way out. I didn't dare to risk the lives of all the brothers in the team, and I was even more afraid that I would lose if I bet on Lu Huaizhi's life. I was frozen in place and couldn't move. Suddenly, Lu Huaizhi used his last bit of strength to speak, and there were only two words in his hoarse voice, "I die." I rushed forward like crazy to block the bullet for him, but it was too late. The moment the bullet passed through his head, everything around me seemed to slow down, and I could even hear my own heartbeat shattering in the silence. I used my last bit of strength to grab Wu Ze's gun, load it, and fired eight shots at Wu Ze. I used my last breath to snatch Wu Ze's gun, and sent this drug lord who deserved death to see the King of Hell. But his men immediately put all their bullets on me. When I pulled away from consciousness, I saw Huai Zhi dead in a pool of blood, his eyes still open and looking in my direction. I fell in his direction, finally able to be closer to him - it was so good to die where he was, so that I could continue to love him openly in another world. Purpose: Love till death