Stars in the Sun

[The full text is being revised and rewritten, you can wait until I finish rewriting it before reading it] I spent all the energy of my youth just to bow my head once for him. Finally, it was discovered that the sun never stopped for any star. --- Everyone thought that Lin Che was my light. Yes, but not entirely. He is the kind of boy who will naturally become the center of the crowd when he walks in the crowd - the main player of the basketball team, always in the top three, with a smile as clean as if it had been tempered by sunlight. And I, Su Xinghe, am the quietest shadow on the edge of his light. Everyone said, "Su Xinghe, you and Lin Che have such a good relationship." Yes, I am his reliable deskmate, the first person he thinks of when he has a problem, and the friend he can talk to when he is frustrated. But that's all. In this long silent look up, the most painful thing is never the distance. But when you are close enough to the light, you understand—— You are just one of the thousands of things illuminated by him, never special, let alone the only one. Until the party that got out of hand on graduation night. Drunk, he leaned on my shoulder, and his warm breath burned my ear: "Xing He, do you know... You are like a star." The world fell silent for a moment. I heard my deafening heartbeat, mixed with the faint fragrance of soap locust on his body. The whole secret of youth seems to be about to usher in a shocking confession under the influence of alcohol. But he just smiled, his voice mixed with a sigh: "... So close to me, yet so far away. No matter how hard I try, I can't see what you really look like." At that moment, I suddenly understood everything. It turned out that all the light I desperately flashed was just a blurry and distant spot in his eyes. It turns out that the sun never stares at any specific star. What he loves is the bright illusion of the entire galaxy. - "You are the greatest regret in my youth, and also the silent ceremony for me to crown myself." If falling in love with you is just a dream, how should I fall asleep when I wake up? Quoting the song "Stars in the Sun" one by one Intention: secret love