"Unfound Peace"

Book title: "The Peace Not Found" Core tone: Difficulty in peace of mind·Destiny and regret·Youth BE Character setting - Male Protagonist: Pei Xun'an is a cold and reserved academic master. A family incident in his childhood made him accustomed to hiding his thoughts in his heart. His life motto is "move forward, don't look back." His name hides his obsession with "stability", but it happened that he met Jiang Yining in the most turbulent youth. - Heroine: Jiang Yining, a bright and enthusiastic girl, like the midsummer sun, with a fresh breath all over her body. Her name was her family's wish for her to be "peaceful all year round", but her youth was filled with the passion and panic of chasing Pei Xun'an. Story line [First encounter·Cicada chirping in midsummer] At the beginning of the first year of high school, Jiang Yining ran into Pei Xun'an's arms in the corridor and knocked the notebook out of his hand. There is a yellowed photo in the book with the word "Xun'an" written on the back. Jiang Yining smiled and said, "My name is Jiang Yining, the memory of memory, the peace of Ning, our names come together to find peace." Pei Xunan was stunned for a moment, then picked up the notebook and whispered "coincidence". From then on, Jiang Yining chased Pei Xun'an around like a little sun, bringing him breakfast, filling in his notes, and standing up to support him when he was isolated. Pei Xun'an didn't say anything, but he would silently hand Jiang Yining water when she ran 800 meters, and leave a classroom light on when she stayed up late to study questions. Heartbeat·Snowfall in Winter In the winter of my senior year of high school, it snowed heavily. Pei Xun'an's mother was seriously ill and the family's savings were depleted, so he had to apply to drop out of school and work. After Jiang Yining found out, she secretly gave him her New Year's money and said with red eyes, "Pei Xun'an, you can't give up, I'll go through it with you." In the snowy night, Pei Xun'an held her hand for the first time. His palm was cold, but with a scalding temperature. He said, "Jiang Yining, wait for me, wait for me to give you a stable future." That was the moment they were closest to "peace". Snow fell on their eyelashes, like a dream from which they would never wake up. [Divergence·Drifting in the sea of ​​people] After the college entrance examination, Pei Xun'an was admitted to a key university far away, but Jiang Yining stayed at the local second school because of his abnormal performance. The distance was like an invisible wall that separated the two people. Pei Xun'an was busy working to earn tuition and take care of his mother, and gradually ran out of time to reply to Jiang Yining's messages. Jiang Yining looked at the increasingly unfamiliar scenery in his circle of friends, and felt more and more uneasy. During a video call, Jiang Yining cried and asked him, "Do you not love me anymore?" Pei Xun'an was silent for a long time and only said, "I can't give you the life you want now, so don't wait for me." He hung up the phone and looked at his mother's medical record with red eyes. He thought that pushing her away was to let her find better peace. Missed · Farewell in this world After four years of college, the two lost contact. Jiang Yining stayed in school as a teacher after graduation and had gentle and considerate suitors around her, but she always thought of Pei Xun'an when she saw a boy in a white shirt. Pei Xun'an graduated from graduate school and joined a good company. His mother's illness gradually improved. He finally felt confident and wanted to go back to Jiang Yining. He returned to his alma mater and saw Jiang Yining standing in the corridor, smiling and touching a little girl's head. The sun fell on her body, so gentle that it was unbelievable. Standing next to her was a man, her fiancé. Pei Xunan stood in the shadow of the tree, holding a ring in his hand, and finally took it back quietly. When Jiang Yining turned around, he only saw a familiar figure disappearing deep into the sycamore tree. She was stunned, and her eyes suddenly turned red. [Ending·Unrest for the rest of my life] Many years later, the two met again at a class reunion. Pei Xun'an has a successful career, but he is still alone. As a married woman, Jiang Yining has a bit more gentleness in her face and eyes, but there is a hint of indescribable regret hidden in her smile. Someone asked about what happened back then. Jiang Yining smiled and shook his head, "He was just young and frivolous." Pei Xun'an held the wine glass and whispered, "I wish you peace all year round." When the show ended, it rained heavily. Pei Xunan held an umbrella and watched Jiang Yining get into someone else's car. The car lights turned on, reflecting the rain curtain, like a gap that could no longer be crossed. He suddenly remembered that snowy night many years ago, when he said he would give her a stable future. It turned out that he had been looking for peace for half his life, but he had missed it from the moment he met Jiang Yining. The ending is frozen: Pei Xun'an stood in the rain, the umbrella cover swaying in the wind. The car in the distance gradually disappeared into the night. He raised his hand and touched the position of his heart. There was an empty space there that could no longer be filled. Intention: No one will wait for you forever