Timid and sensitive girl × indifferent and alienated boy
Seventeen-year-old Liu Yingxi was casually "rescued" by a boy named Ye Jinsen in an alley at dusk.
He was pale and lonely, with empty eyes looking toward the sea.
Campus rumors said that he suffered from a serious heart disease and doctors determined that he would not live to be twenty-three.
From then on, she could no longer take her eyes off him.
She began to calculate the time when he appeared, remember the route he wandered, and every evening after school, she "happened" to walk on the path where she might meet him, and even mustered up the courage to follow him from a distance to the slope facing the sea.
She looked at his back sitting alone, at him silently taking medicine, at him motionless in the wind and rain, at him using cold indifference to push away everyone who tried to get close - including his cautious mother.
She wrote all these unknown gazes into a diary with only the date and weather.
This grand secret love was like a tide that only happened in her heart. It was invisiblely pulled by the moon named "Ye Jinsen", rising and falling day after day, but never really touched him at all.
It wasn't until her eighteenth birthday that she heard the sharp conversation between him and her father about life and death, and she suddenly understood
Her troubled thoughts were as light as a whisper that was too late to be spoken in the face of his fate that was as heavy as a curse.
The college entrance examination is over and youth is over.
Years later, she had become a quiet adult in a northern city, but she burst into tears without warning on a similar moonlit night.
It turns out that the tide will recede and the salt particles will settle, but the eternal gravity will never disappear.
"The doctor said that the man I have a crush on will not live to be twenty-three."
"Later I learned that not all tides need to be known by the moon."
[Demining Guide/Instructions Before Reading]
1. This article is a complete BE. The male protagonist is confirmed to have passed away after the story timeline, and there is no possibility of change, rebirth, or parallel time and space.
2. An absolute one-way secret love, the male protagonist never fell in love with the female protagonist from the beginning to the end. The interaction between the two is extremely limited, there is no sweet love, ambiguity, or two-way running. Love never gets an equal response
3. The heroine is an ordinary introverted high school student. Her secret love behavior includes a certain degree of "stalking" attention, which is emotionally humble and fruitless. A non-growth heroine, the focus of the story is on emotional experience rather than counterattack
4. The male protagonist has congenital heart disease, is lonely and distant, has an indifferent attitude towards life, and has a tendency to self-destruct. Not gentle, not healing, not providing emotional value
5. The whole process is from the perspective of the heroine, with melancholy literature and art, a soothing rhythm, and a low plot density. Focus on psychological description and atmosphere rendering
Purpose: This is a meditation on "how hopeless love becomes the nourishment of life". It explores how love returns to itself when it is destined to fail to reach its target, completing a silent and magnificent spiritual expedition.
