I Love You, but I Can Also Abandon You

Early stage: When Shen Xu was seventeen, it was the cold floor, his father's fists, and the sobs he dared not speak out late at night. She clutched her cell phone and repeatedly stroked the name in her address book, risking all her strength to type out the confession. She thought she would be trampled again, but instead she met Xie Ci's gentle gaze. He said that she was brave, that her pain was real, that Xuanzong of Heaven and Earth had a powerful root, and that she could come to him anytime if anything happened in the future. The horror movies in the Internet cafe were her refuge, and the seventeen missed calls were his uncontrollable anger. After three days of cold war, she looked through the chat history and her eyes were red, but she saw the awkward wait sentence in the circle of friends that only she could see. It turned out that he was also waiting, waiting for her to look for him a few more times, waiting for her to break through his panic under his pretense of indifference. They talked about the hilarious ideas about prison sewing machines, complained about the English teacher's "children's exaggeration party", and she shared the sweet and sweet bits of "Unexpected Love". He didn't understand her joy of eating sweets, but he was willing to listen to her talk happily; she didn't know his past, but she was greedy for the warmth from his palms. Fate is a guide in the dark, and the accumulation of several months is a two-way approach. In the barren youth, he was the clear spring flowing over the dry land, the light called "salvation" that she finally dared to reach out to grasp. ——Later period Sister Wei: "Thank you, we have broken up a long time ago and we are single." … Shen Xu likes to be relaxed and comfortable when chatting with Xie Ci. Xie Ci will listen to her, tolerate her, and encourage her. Shen Xu will complain and say a bunch of useless words, and Xie Ci will patiently analyze her. One day, Xie Ci was unhappy and wanted Shen Xu to coax her. Shen Xu's mind twitched and he sent the message. Shen Xu: "I like you" Thank you: "Okay, then we will be together." Shen Xu couldn't believe it. She regarded him as the missing father's love and as a master. Shen Xu asked aggrievedly if he could take back what I said. ଽ꒰⌓̈ ॢ꒱ ̉ ̉ Thank you: "If you take it back, delete the communication. We will no longer need to meet or contact you." Shen Xu had no choice but to make a mistake. (ᗒᗩᗕ)՞ Shen Xu always thought that he would never fall in love with anyone. After meeting Ben Xian, Shen Xu fell in love with him, and became painful and sad in the few months they got along with him. It would be painful to be together, and it would be painful to break up without being reconciled. Shen Xu has always encouraged Xie to communicate in relationships. Later, Shen Xu became more and more disappointed. Unable to let go of him, he gradually became indifferent. His words of thanks gradually changed, but Shen Xu was still in pain. I apologize because I suffer from depression and bipolar disorder because my ex cheated on me. Later, Shen Xu saw a passage on Xie Ci's mobile phone: "Shen Xu and his first love look alike, and my first lover was with him, so I don't feel regretful anymore." Shen Xu questioned Xie Ci, and Xie Ci said that it was just a hair resemblance. You are you, she is her, and now Shen Xu is the only one in your heart. Shen Xu didn't believe it in his heart Shen Xuhui felt resentful because of the pain of his predecessor who declined. Shen Xu thinks that if you are hurt, you are hurt. There are traces of pain, but you are always unwilling to accept it. Every time Shen Xu mentioned breaking up, he would ruthlessly walk away after saying goodbye, but Shen Xu was unwilling to seek peace, and Shen Xu would ask why you were so ruthless and unwilling to stay every time. Xie Ci said that he would think that Shen Xu really wanted to leave him, and felt sad but he couldn't express it. Xie Ci said that every time Shen Xu came to him, he would be very happy and felt that Shen Xu really loved him. In fact, Shen Xu was really disappointed in this wrong relationship. After a long time, Shen Xu naturally let go and left to thank him. The one you love from the beginning to the end is yourself. I fall in love with you, but I also abandon you. Shen Xu in my novel is sober from beginning to end, but she is just falling in love with someone, letting her taste the ups and downs of love, and it is only a matter of time before she lets go. Not letting go is just unwillingness and the feeling that you have not really got that person. By the time you get it, it doesn't seem to be very important anymore. In the end, Shen Xu had the upper hand in this emotional game. Intention: I can love you or abandon you.