Shen Juan, who works in the emergency department, can save everyone except himself whose marriage is broken. Until she decided to use an experiment of 'allowing herself to fall' to save herself - including accepting a contract of 'only going to bed, not talking about love'.
Before starting Shen Juan's story, I want to confess one thing - the descriptions in this book about the desolation after a failed marriage, about the fear and temptation in intimate relationships, and about the mind retreating when the body is close, are not imagination, but flowers of words blooming from my old wounds.
Yes, like Shen Juan, I have stood on the ruins of my marriage for a long time, not knowing how to rebuild it. I also tried to fill all my time with work, decorate my vulnerability with "independence", and anesthetize the pain of loneliness with casual intimacy. When Shen Juan felt longing and alienated in the hotel room, when I described her inability to completely surrender herself in an intimate relationship - that was not a writer imagining it, but a woman embracing her once overwhelmed self across the years.
Purpose: Recording a woman's independent growth