"Doesn't the name number 11 deserve to be posted on the honor roll?"
"I don't need to be on the honor roll." She thought at this moment.
Dedicated to every "Cheng Dongqing":
If you have ever looked for your name on the ranking list, explained all the setbacks with insufficient effort, and answered questions guiltily late at night; had a natural attraction to excellent people, but couldn't tell whether it was a heartbeat or admiration; felt suffocated between the expectations of your parents and your own breathing; doubted whether I was still worthy of being loved if I was not good enough.
Well, this story is for you. It is not about how to become better, but how to regain the right to define your own life amidst the curse of "must be excellent".
Seventeen-year-old Cheng Dongqing is the most familiar and embarrassing existence in key high schools: always hovering in the top ten in the class, always one step away from excellence. She is very good among ordinary people, but she is always dissatisfied with herself; she tries her best to stay in the middle and upper reaches, but she can neither enjoy the aura of the top nor have complete relaxation.
She didn't know how to take the road ahead, but maybe after reading this novel, you will see some directions.
Intention: Make peace with your imperfect self