The rental house in 2003 was soaked in the humidity of the city, and also wrapped in the most forbearing love. They are not bound by blood, but they are dependent on each other and carve each other into their bones and blood. They thought that after surviving the difficult years, they would be able to wait for the light, until she was 22 years old and was shrouded in the shadow of cerebellar atrophy.
Illness is the cruelest plunder, taking away her flexibility, crushing her pride and dignity, turning her from a lover who walks side by side to a burden that needs his constant care. Seeing him giving up his dream of traveling far away for her, spending his youth and savings, and having his eyes reddened by the protection of day and night, all that was left in her world was self-blame and despair. Leaving became the only way she could think of to give her freedom.
She hid the pills, deliberately spilled the warm water, and used silence to fight against his tenderness, but every time she tried, she was crushed by his hot confession. Under the light of the rental house, he would squat down and hold her disabled tightly. He held her trembling hand over and over again, kissed the tears from the corners of her eyes, and over and over again, shattered her self-abandonment with a hoarse but firm confession: "My love for you is not a responsibility, but my willing destiny."
Abuse and warmth are intertwined. He is her crutch to fight the pain, holding up the collapsed world for her; she is his obsession in his tired life, and the light he keeps. In the damp rental house, while being harshly treated by fate and torn apart in despair, they redeemed each other with deep affection and pieced together warmth through meticulous care. It turns out that the most painful love is to watch you suffer without being able to do anything; the most healing redemption is to know that the road ahead is difficult, but I am still willing to stay with you every morning and evening until the end of time.
Intention: Keep your heart warm and open to warmth