Looking for Autumn Again

My name is Xunqiu, Jiang Xunqiu, and I was born in summer (June 1), this season of high-spirited life. Of course, that high-spirited life does not belong to me, nor to us. (General Chapter 1: It's a dream, it's not) Picking up the pen is a very long dream, a dream within a dream, or a fantasy before death. The spirit is saving my life. In the autumn when I was 16, my life was messed up. God said, come back again. I am Jiang Xunqiu, you are He Nanyou (June 8), and he is Wen Shulin (June 24). Chapter 1: Let's take a look at my story from my perspective. The road of life is fleeting. If we don't have that longing, how can we think about it and how can we dream about it? Jiang Nanyou is my godmother's first son, and Wen Shulin is Nanyou's godmother's child. Nanyou's family is a scholarly family, and even their temperament has a sense of poetry and calligraphy. Xunqiu and Shulin's parents are both businessmen. The parents of the three people in the family are busy and the family tradition is strict. The lack of companionship has caused the three young children to develop seemingly withdrawn characters. What's more, "I" and "you" are both in poor health. We are each other's salvation and each other's light. Nanyou has some congenital heart disease. He likes to sit quietly in a chair and read books leisurely. He has amber pupils and a dark brown tear mole at the corner of his eye. His nose is high and straight, as perfect as a sculpture. His skin is cold and white, maybe because he has not seen the sun all year round, which makes him a little more lonely. The most impressive thing about Leng Zhiqi is the black mole in the middle of his left eyebrow, which makes him look so out of reach. He loves to smile, but there is always an imperceptible sadness in his smile. He is distant but polite to others, like a gust of wind that cannot be caught or touched. After Nanyou dropped out of school, she recuperated in our hometown. It was a place full of flowers, so children from any family had a great affinity for flowers. What's more, there are three of us. Nanyou likes lotus and Fengxingzi very much, and likes to eat grapefruit, so even though she has a strong bitter taste of medicine. Still can't resist the fragrance of grapefruit. Nanyou loves to listen to music and can play the guitar. She always likes to play some old songs when she returns to her hometown to recuperate during the holidays. He was like a child trapped in that ancient time who couldn't get out, a nostalgic youth who stayed in that autumn forever. Xunqiu likes to dance and sing (except for studying, he can do anything well), but his health has not been good since he was a child, and he has been suffering from serious and minor illnesses. My eyes have been injured, so I have always been afraid of light. She lacked companionship, so she had psychological problems. It was not until Nanyou had an accident that her legs and feet were injured and she could no longer dance. It became more serious, so she developed bipolar disorder. After Nanyou passed away, she lived like him. Lightning has lost its wind and looks so helpless and lonely no matter what. Xunqiu has been living with regrets, but the aloof Rose has been infected with He's elegance because of him. She has hated everyone in her life, but Wen Shulin. Even if Wen Shulin's brother is strict with her, at least he is with her. Wen Shulin gave up the opportunity to study abroad for her. She had hated Nanyou's determination, knowing that she was about to die, but she endured the pain and refused to tell herself. She hated his sensibleness, and she hated herself even more for not knowing anything in the end. Wen Shulin is the eldest child among the three, and his grades are very good. His family has great hopes for him. I called him big brother, and he agreed with a smile. In the end, the two of us served each other throughout our long life. There is always a slight coldness between the boy's brows and eyes, and his silence seems to be separated from the excitement around him by an invisible barrier, making people afraid to approach easily. His eyes are deep, deep blue, like the blue flowers of the stream, both lonely and romantic... Just like Klein blue is too pure, so it is difficult to find a matching color, and he will be lonely and arrogant throughout his life; Grandpa always said that he must shoulder everything, and he knew that he had his own responsibilities. So in the article he is always the stern but kind big brother. He always felt that he had been sorry to many people in this life, but he knew in his heart that these were the right choices. Shulin and Nanyou are the best brothers. He knows Nanyou's thoughts, so he hides all his feelings. After Nanyou died, he became the same as Nanyou. Shulin also selfishly wanted Xunqiu to stay away from Nanyou, but he couldn't. Both of them are their most important people. The first general chapter is a memoir, but at the end it is discovered that the principle is the perspective of a dream (fantasy during suicide). Light, dreamlike. Like a stone thrown into the river of time, it cannot stir up any ripples. It's like a fantasy of childhood, or a memory of shy and ignorant love in youth. It's a pity that it turned into nothing in the end. Smiling, I regard my regrets as the autumn breeze, light and staggering, awkward. I write about the loneliness of the swaying sycamore trees, about the loneliness of the solitary ape, about my heart like the endless night wind in the wilderness, about the sorrow and sorrow of separation after the late autumn joy, who can I share it with? I'm just an actor, shedding my own tears in other people's stories. So I wrote down the surging thoughts in my heart to express my thoughts to the deceased, my youth, and my longing. Perhaps the memory is bittersweet and hides the cracks of decay. But I still choose to remember that you have died long ago (General Chapter 2: Moon, moon, you don't understand how much sixpence actually weighs) Three years later, I finally woke up from that dream, and I began to live a good life, but how should I live in a world without you? I found "you", but it's not you. I should be able to tell the difference between Nanyou and Nanyi, so why should I indulge in that disintegrating dream? Nan Yi is different from you. He is sunny and gentle, and his two tiger teeth are eye-catching when he smiles. Beauty lies in the character but not in the appearance. At first sight, she is handsome and handsome. A person who obviously doesn't look like you, but makes me feel like that's you... That afternoon, I seemed to see "you" again. He Nanyi and Jiang Nanyou, one is a tea shop owner who is kind to others, lives proudly in the light but feels alienated, and the other is a lonely and sad patient who lives in the dark. How could it be the same? Xu Mingzhu is a very good girl. The eldest lady is beautiful and sensible. Even if she has a little temper sometimes, she still makes people feel friendly. But she is so kind that I, a selfish mouse living in the darkness, dare not look directly into her eyes. Intention: Move towards spring, don't dwell in the past