In fact, all the fanfics + essays from the time I started writing to now are saved in a file.
"Is this the life you want now?" "Yes, of course, and no. To be fair, sometimes I feel that it would be good to live like this for the rest of my life. It's ordinary, with no big ups and downs, but at least I have a stable cabin and lights that I can control on and off by myself."
"But this is not what I want. I want to do some crazy things desperately, even if I am injured, even if there are serious consequences. But I will not regret it. Only by experiencing it can I have it. Just like me now, it seems that I have everything, but in fact I have nothing."
"I have nothing."
Intention: I belong to myself