This book touches on multiple relationships, explorations of sexuality, and life journeys. The story has deep literary texture and social significance, and touches on multiple themes such as homosexuality, bisexuality, depression, and family relationships. The character relationships and story lines are full of emotional depth, human complexity and fateful entanglements, exploring love, desire, identity, loneliness and redemption. The story spans decades, and there are huge emotional waves under the calm words.
This is not only a love story, but also a story about longing to be loved, seeking recognition and self-salvation.
The protagonist "I" has been looking for a harbor that can see through all her disguises and fully accept her throughout her life, but she has repeatedly struggled at the boundary between love and injury. She is the heart and narrator of the story. A woman who has been pursuing "absolute love" her whole life is sensitive, brave but extremely fragile. Her depression was not an accident, but an outburst of long-term emotional suppression and confusion of self-identity.
"He" is the core contradiction of the story. He is "my" spiritual guide and doom. The charm lies in experience and affection, while the terror lies in paranoia and hidden true tendencies. His love for "me" is mixed with spiritual dependence, possessiveness and the concealment of his own unspeakable desires.
Purpose: To explore love and desire, identity, loneliness and redemption...