That Grand Secret Love Is Just a Touch of Light Fingertips

The old dream of fingertips lightly hooking The wind in the senior year of high school carried the scent of ink on the test papers and blew away Lin Zhi's secret love that had been hidden in her heart for three years. Before she could hand over the note filled with her thoughts, the senior she had a crush on, Chen Chu, graduated early. Like a silent wind, it took away the brightest light of her youth, leaving only the room filled with sadness. Just when this loss was about to overwhelm her, transfer student Jiang Che broke into her world. He has almost the same eyebrows as Chen Chu, but he is less distant and more lively. Jiang Che's approach was filled with the warmth of midsummer. He would bring warm milk to her while she was studying questions late into the night, and would patiently explain to her when she was stuck on a difficult problem. Those inadvertent tenderness made Lin Zhi gradually let go of her guard, and her obsession with Chen Chu was quietly transferred to this similar but different boy. She regarded his words of "I want to be the same as you for the college entrance examination" as the most precious promise in her youth. She treasured it carefully and even secretly described the scene of the two of them at the same university countless times. But fate's joke caught her off guard. On the day she filled out her application form, she suddenly discovered that Jiang Che's application column filled in the exact same school and major as Su Nian, the top student in grade. That was a future that she could not reach even with her tiptoes. At the graduation ceremony, the setting sun dyed the sky orange. Jiang Che and Su Nian walked side by side on the red carpet. Their fingertips seemed to be holding each other, like a dull knife, gently cutting open Lin Zhi's heart. She stood in the crowd, watching their retreating figures, and finally realized that she was just a dispensable bystander in this youth, and her throbbing and expectations were all in vain. Many years later, at a class reunion, when Lin Zhi heard the news about Jiang Che and Su Nian's marriage, she calmly raised her glass, then turned around and dug out an old photo from that year in the corner. In the photo, on the red carpet of the graduation ceremony, Jiang Che's fingertips were just gently hooking the hem of Su Nian's clothes. The seemingly intimate holding of hands was just a shy trial by the young man. It turns out that everything has been traced for a long time. Her youthful pain and her brooding were just a misunderstanding caused by similar appearance. After all, she was an unknown passerby in his story whose name was never remembered. Those ignorant throbs, those cautious joys, eventually settled in time and became an old dream that is difficult to shake off. Concept: The throbbing of youth often begins with a gentle misrecognition. Lin Zhi's story hides the secret thoughts of every girl in her ignorant years - a secret love anchored by a similar appearance is an obsession with self-projection. She regarded Jiang Che's appearance as the light in the dark time, and the promise of "just like you" as salvation, but she did not realize that this heartbeat had a misplaced background from the beginning. The purpose of the novel is to describe the "almost" regrets and misunderstandings in youth. The shy temptation of Jiang Che's fingertips was amplified by time and distance into an unforgettable sting; Lin Zhi's cautious joy was finally shattered in the face of reality. This is not anyone's fault, but the relationship between boys and girls is inherently hazy. Similar facial features and casual tenderness may become a breeding ground for ignorance, and misunderstandings and misses are the normal state of youth. Deeper, it is an inquiry into "self-awareness" and "time relief". The truth in the old photos many years later made Lin Zhi understand that her pain and obsession were just projections of her own expectations into other people's stories. Those uneasy throbbings will eventually become nutrients for growth over time - the regret of youth is never that it has not been possessed, but that it has been so purely expected and heartbeat. The novel outlines this misplaced secret love with delicate writing, and ultimately points to reconciliation with youth: accepting that you were a passer-by in other people's stories, and cherishing those regretful but extremely sincere years.