"I love you, I don't say anything, I just look at you smiling across from me;
I love, as long as I feel it in my heart, I don't need to know what you think about me in your heart;
I cherish my secrets, and I also cherish the faint sadness that has never turned into pain;
I swear: I love to give up on you, without any hope, but not without happiness;
——As long as I can miss you, I am happy enough, even if I can no longer see you smiling across from me..."
This is Musset's "Daisy", the words that were engraved in my heart that morning when Jiang Zijin left. This is what she told herself, forcing herself to stay away. What is scattered in front of you is the endless past and the unknown future. On the other side of the cloud, there are tears in your eyes.
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"Yan Sunxi, how could you be so virtuous and capable that I should shamelessly hold on to you?"
"Yeah."
"Yan Sunxi, I hate you the most. So I will forget you. I will definitely forget you!"
"Yeah."
"Sun Xi, once I leave, I'm afraid it will be difficult for me to see you again for the rest of my life. So, you are not allowed to forget me. You must remember all the good things I do."
"Yeah."
"Sun Xi, Sun Xi, you know? Often, I can't find an excuse to say your name."
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"Sun Xi, in fact, all I need to know is that I love you. Really. After that, I never thought about being with you or tying you up. Don't hate me, okay?"
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