"Give You Preference: The Person Who Loves Me Most in the World"
I have asked myself countless times in the aftertaste: Aren't the people who love me most in the world my parents? Not brothers? Not a lover?
The burden of his native family made him breathless. His mother's preference was always towards his younger brother. His father's gambling debts followed him everywhere. The so-called family love became a debt that needed to be repaid. He once thought that love was his salvation, and Cha Xiaoqing was the only light in his life, but they eventually became separated in reality. The phrase "You are the person I love most, but I am not the person you love most" became a thorn in his heart. Tang Guo's silent devotion and Beina's unrequited love were all turned into regrets by fate's tricks, leaving him alone in his absence, counting his heartbeats.
Until Shen Yan appeared. This writer, who holds the Centurion Black Gold Card, met him unexpectedly during the rainy season in Xiamen. Starting from the transaction of a Panamera, he quietly walked into his world full of holes. He doesn't ask for it like his family does, doesn't pull like his old love, he just uses restrained tenderness to catch all his fatigue and embarrassment.
When Yuwei once again stood on the edge of no man's land and looked back, I finally understood: the purest love is never a favor that needs to be repaid, nor is it an obsession that cannot be obtained, but someone who is willing to pave the way home for you regardless of the past. Those expectations and longings that had been disappointed were slowly revived in Shen Yan's preference.
It turns out that there really is such love in the world - no conditions, no questions about cause and effect, I just hope that you will never have to bear the wind and rain alone for the rest of your life.
Purpose: nihilism existentialism