Sparse Shadows in Summer

A story about rebirth, healing and self-reconstruction Seventeen-year-old Lin Guimu died on a cold winter night. She spent her entire youth loving someone deeply, and finally exhausted all her strength in hopeless obsession. Then she was reborn. Back to the first day of high school, back to the summer before everything started. The cicadas were still noisy, the sun was still scorching, and the person who had caused her eternal damnation - Qiao Zhuzhao, was standing on the podium, shining brightly. This time, Lin Guimu chose a completely different life path: She no longer revolves around a beam of light, but learns to shine on her own. She no longer regards love as salvation, but learns to love herself first. She no longer runs away from the pain, but continues to move forward with the scars. From under the sycamore tree of Xingcheng No. 3 Middle School to the cherry blossom path of A University, from the examination room of the mathematics competition to the podium of the international academic conference, Lin Guimu walked out of the maze named "Qiao Zhuzhao" step by step, and found his own place in the wider world - and a truly healthy love. But there is another layer of truth to this story: The "I" who wrote these words is the prototype of Lin Guimu. In reality, "I" have no rebirth and no chance to come back. I can only learn how to reconcile with the past on the established timeline with scars all over my body. Therefore, "Xia Xu Qinghen" becomes a two-line narrative: One line is the fictional Lin Guimu - she got the "second chance" we all long for, used rebirth to avoid all wrong choices, and lived out the ideal version. The other line is the real "me" - there is no miracle, no turning back time, I can only put myself back to my complete appearance bit by bit through psychological consultation, long self-healing and daily reconstruction. This is a story about "if", but also a story about "even if there is no if". It explores: · When deep love turns into hurt, how should we deal with it? · How do we move on when the shadow of the past lingers? ·What does healthy love look like? · How much brokenness does a person have to go through before he can truly learn to love himself? Through Lin Guimu's idealized rebirth and "I"'s real struggle, what "Xia Xu Qinghen" ultimately wants to say is: Rebirth is not about going back to the past and changing everything, but choosing how to live in this moment. Healing is not about forgetting all the pain, but learning to move forward with the scars. Love is not the sacrifice of a moth to a flame, but the growth of two complete souls side by side. Whether you have ever had your heart broken by someone, whether you have doubted yourself late at night that you are worthy of love, this story will tell you: Those pains will eventually pass, and those dark nights will eventually light up. And you can definitely—— Rebuild after being broken, still believe in love after loving, and create your own, warm and solid life in the reality of no rebirth. Dedicated to all those who have been hurt but are still brave enough to move forward. May we all be our own light and then meet another beam of light - not to save you, but to illuminate each other with you. Purpose: youthful growth