Under the Sun

The redemption of friendship Shen Xiaotong·General Life (2024-2026) She was born into a fairly stable family. Her parents provided her with food, clothing and clothing. She wasn't exactly pampered, but she didn't lack anything. My mother is not strict, my father doesn't talk much, there are no big storms at home, and there aren't many emotional outlets. Therefore, she has been accustomed to keeping many things in her heart since she was a child and digesting them by herself. On September 1, 2024, she will be in fourth grade That day she noticed Xin Jinyu for the first time. He was sitting somewhere in the trusteeship, talking to the boy next to him. She glanced at her as she passed by, and he raised his head. She remembered that glance for a long time, and it took her more time to forget it. At that time, she interpreted many things as "he is interested in me." When he touches her head, her heart beats faster; when he says something slightly normal, she is happy all day long; when he is hot and cold, she can't sleep all night, looking through the chat history repeatedly, trying to find some evidence that "he actually cares about me" from those few words. She nicknamed him "Xizhilang" and "Zuzong Xin", as if coaxing a pufferfish that was about to explode at any time. In the winter of 2025, she learned from other classmates that he had never liked her - not even once. The things he did and the words he said were all just to see her reaction. She felt like the sky was falling. She began to have nightmares, began to avoid the floor where the second shift was located, and began to be afraid of passing certain corridors. Later she found out it was PTSD - post-traumatic stress disorder Su Xintian was accompanying her at that time. Su Xintian wouldn't say too many words of comfort, but he would hold her hand when she was shaking, say "I'll take a detour with you" when she didn't dare to walk down that corridor, and pass a tissue to her when she wasn't crying. Su Xintian brought her a white fox pendant from Hong Kong, saying it was a "Christmas gift", but the date on the pendant was in autumn - she had already prepared it, but she just chose a day to give it to her "without looking too deliberate" It was also during that time that she got to know Wang Qingrang again. Wang Qingrang is from the second class. He has short hair, neat words, and doesn't talk in roundabout ways. After she heard about Shen Xiaotong, she only said six words: "He's just sick. Don't care." Later, on one of Shen Xiaotong's most difficult days, Wang Qingrang put her hand on his shoulder and said, "Hit her if you want, and I'll hold it down for you." She didn't hit anyone. But at that moment, she felt for the first time that someone was on her side, really on her side. Yu Yu is another. Yu Yu is the kind of person who will pull you and run. He will not ask you "Are you okay?" But will directly take you to see beautiful lights, take beautiful photos, and eat delicious ice cream. She took a lot of photos of Shen Xiaotong, most of them showing her smiling. Later, when Shen Xiaotong looked through those photos, she discovered that she had not smiled at all in those days. In the summer of 2026, she began to read the Civil Code. I borrowed it from a classmate and bought a copy myself after flipping through a few pages. She couldn't tell why she bought it, maybe she just thought - "If someone does this to me again, I will at least know which page to turn to." In 2025, she met Han Zhixia. At first, he was just a sixth-grade boy in the day care class. He didn't talk much and would occasionally give her candy. She later asked him why he always gave him sweets, and he said: "Because you are Sweet." That was the nickname she left behind when she wrote an ancient poem in the fourth grade and wrote the author's name as "Sweet". She had almost forgotten it, but he still remembered it. He's a very quiet person. He won't surprise you by appearing suddenly, nor will he say a lot of words that you don't know how to answer. He just stood there with a piece of candy in his hand and handed it over. Later, he began to touch her head - gently, as if confirming something that had been confirmed many times. She would also touch him back and sometimes hug him. She knew it wasn't a dramatic story, but it made her feel reassured. In the spring of 2026, her mother took away her mobile phone. Because someone spread some words to her family, saying that she "told others everywhere that people were cheating on her feelings." Mom cleared all the address books, leaving only Su Xintian and Lin Wei. During that time, she couldn't contact anyone except Su Xintian. She didn't let that stop her. She continued to read the "Civil Code", continued to maintain the little contact with Su Xintian, continued to sit down in the psychology teacher's consultation room, and finished the unfinished words bit by bit. Later, Teacher Lin said something to her that she has always remembered: "You don't need to prove that you are worthy of protection. You are already standing here." Before the summer of 2026, her mother returned the phone to her. After she got the phone, the first person she added was Han Zhixia - although she was added through Xie Jingnian's recommended business card. The night he applied as a friend, he texted "Sweet!". She sat looking at the word for a long time, and finally responded with an expression like Feng Xiaomeng. Now she has graduated from fifth grade. She is still writing novels, and her pen name is still "Zong Yun". Her pain bag is empty, but her schoolbag is still there. Her WeChat list is much shorter, but the people in it are more real than the last - Su Xintian, Yu Yu, Wang Qingrang, Xie Jingnian, Han Zhixia. She still has nightmares, but she no longer wakes up in the middle of the night with no one to talk to. She still thinks of Xin Jinyu, but when she thinks of him, there is no emotion in her heart - only "Oh, that person" is left. She didn't become that powerful person. She will still be nervous, still hesitant, and still secretly happy. But she no longer feels like she doesn't deserve good things. She felt like a tree planted in not so good soil, growing crookedly for a while, but she didn't know when the roots had taken root and the leaves began to stretch out in the direction of light. Her name is Shen Xiaotong. She is still growing up Purpose: personal experience