Words Do Not Convey the Meaning

Introduction to the work "Freedom and Possession" Xu Youning's life started to get moldy during the rainy season when he was sixteen. His mother, Jiang Xu, huddled in a leaky rental house and coughed until her heart ached. His aunt Lin Haiyin kept his pension as "care money." He and his disabled sister Xu You were huddled in the patio utility room, listening to the sound of water hitting the broken porcelain basin from the eaves, and counting their mother's gradually cooling body temperature. After he was twelve years old, he learned to boil his tears into ice and cut his tenderness into thorns - until he was seventeen years old and bumped into Kang Chujing at the corner of the library. The young man was holding a stack of books, his white shirt stained with wisteria flowers, and he knelt down to pick up the fallen pen for him. When he raised his head, his eyes sparkled with stars: "Do you need help?" That was the first time in twelve years that Xu Youning had an almost greedy desire for "someone other than his mother." Kang Chujing is the light falling in the gutter. His parents have been doing business overseas all year round. He is like a lily of the valley that is short of water, gentle, pure and kind to the point of being innocent: he will stuff hot milk into Xu Youning's frozen red palms, block him in front of him when he is blocked by his classmates at the stairs, and say with a blushing "I will pick it up next time" when he climbs through the window to deliver stomach medicine in the middle of the night. Xu Youning is like a piece of water-saturated moss, frantically clinging to this warmth - remembering that his milk tea must be very sweet, remembering that he must hold his sleeves when thunder hits, plant wisteria flowers on his window sill, and hide his heartbeat in his shadow. But his love is too crazy. When Kang Chujing and Fa Xiaoyu Hai were joking in the playground, he hid behind a tree and scratched his fist; when he received a love letter from another boy, he soaked the letter in the toilet sewer; the pearl necklace given to him for his birthday fell to pieces when he saw the two hugging each other and called him "dirty". On a rainy night when Kang Chujing ran away crying, Xu Youning smoked his first cigarette in the stairwell. Lin Haiyin's sneer floated in the smoke: "You deserve to like someone like this?" He suddenly understood - his love was never a gift, it was a lock around Kang Chujing's neck, a replica of his mother's father's lies when he was trapped in it, and his hysteria of fear of losing everything. After the college entrance examination, he burned all the photos of Kang Chujing in front of Jiang Xu's tombstone. "People like me don't deserve light." Seven years later, Kang Chujing returned to China. In the crowd of people at the airport, Xu Youning heard the familiar voice of "Trouble, give way." When he looked up, the boy had grown into a man in a suit and leather shoes. There were still stars in his eyes, but they were covered with a fog of alienation. He rushed over and grabbed the opponent's wrist: "Chu Jing, I changed it." Kang Chujing withdrew her hand and said politely but coldly: "Mr. Xu, we are not familiar with each other." This time he didn't bother. He went to a psychological clinic to learn how to love, went to Xu Youtong's rehabilitation class to take care notes, and replaced "monitoring" and "inspection" with "today I cooked your favorite candied taro." I also planted a pot of orchid grass downstairs of the company - it was my mother's favorite variety back then. The card said: "Damn it, I'm giving it to you now." Kang Chujing is still soft-hearted... Demining: It's a bloody game. The early stage torture is extremely cruel and the later stage is cruel. The offensive behavior is on the edge of the law. The emotional value is low. It's not a good read. It's a debut novel for everyone to read. "I used to think that love was possession engraved in my bones and blood, but later I realized that love is learning to give you back to yourself." Intention: Study hard and be a good person