Brain Holes, Black Mud, Essays and Life

There's something very wrong with it. I replied to it a month ago. If another book review hadn't been replied to, I wouldn't have seen it until now. Sad.

I regret why I didn't go to Jinjiang recently and couldn't comfort Dada immediately. I originally wanted to say a long paragraph, but I found that sending it out like this may only increase my troubles. I don't want to make you sad again, Dada. Dad, if, I mean if, if at any time you feel that you don't want to talk about your troubles with familiar people around you, and you don't want to post it like this for more people to see, then come to me and treat me as a trash can. I definitely don't want such a talented big v [Caidog] Dad, you must be happy. You are the first person I have the courage to chat with online. Even with my expectations, you must be happy.

I really want to die early, but after thinking about my relatives, especially my mother, they raised me very well and responsibly. I must at least fulfill my filial piety and live until they grow old and pass away, so that I have no worries in this world. It probably takes Wait until I'm about fifty years old. I don't want offspring. I've done a lot of good deeds, so let me be selfish for once. There are enough rotten people in the world, and there are examples everywhere. Maybe the next one will crawl out of someone's belly. I also have a child who thinks the same as me, but she lives very hard. She is a person who thinks or says she doesn't want to live, but has no time to spare and finds things to do for herself. How can I put it, as long as you want to live a good life, you can definitely live a good life. Don't be limited by the people and things around you, close your heart, and live a more comfortable life by yourself. Besides, most people are kind and principled. Sometimes I don't like my sensitivity, or my sharpness? I wish I had more blunt sensitivity. Sometimes I wish I could show my sharp thorns without any scruples and feel comfortable verbally, instead of being internally conflicted after being verbally offended by others and having something to say but not daring to say it out. Those people are often elders who only have age but not others. Sorry, I originally wanted to comfort you, but ended up talking a lot about myself, but I think you are soft and strong, sober and stronger than them. Send me a quote I saw before, "Verbal violence is too boring, you can't do what I do" [hug]