In the noisiest classroom of youth, Jiang Qiuyuan is the sun in everyone's eyes - handsome, cheerful, and dazzling with humor, and seems to have everything Shi Yunzhen desires. But Shi Yunzhen was just an ordinary girl who was used to being silent in the corner, and she only had a passing acquaintance with his world.
Until one early morning, she bumped into Jiang Qiuyuan buying cigarettes at a convenience store. With all his halo gone, there was a bottomless dejection hidden in his eyes. At that moment, she stopped unexpectedly, and he was caught off guard and revealed a crack.
"Can you... Don't tell others?" He showed weakness for the first time.
"Okay." She was needed for the first time.
From then on, she became the container for his late-night emotions, and he became the proof of her existence. He is parasitic on her tolerance and listening, and uses her love to fill the emptiness in his heart; she is addicted to the sense of worth of being needed by him, and uses his dependence to escape the abyss of inferiority.
The relationship was tilted from the beginning—
He poured out all the darkness, but she accepted it all;
She gave her all sincerity, but he fell deeper and deeper into it.
Until Shi Yunzhen finally woke up:
This relationship did not make her better, but made her see a humbler and more selfless version of herself.
She still loves him, or feels sorry for him, but she knows clearly that she can't save him, and she can't even save herself.
Leaving is not to stop loving, but to survive. This is a sober, self-preserving let go.
"I love you, but at the cost of losing myself."
She personally cut off this relationship that left only pain, as if she was peeling off flesh and blood, but finally breathed her own air.
Purpose: Before loving others, you must first find your complete self; otherwise, love will only become the mutual parasitism of two incomplete souls, eventually leading to mutual destruction.