Hate Autumn

[BE+life and death+regret+girl chasing boy+almost happy] [Mingqiu x Yan Qiqing] [Bright and enthusiastic straight-ball girl vs. Gloomy and beautiful senior] That was the last warm autumn in Boning City. The burning clouds were as red as blood condensed in the sky, and the boy's white shirt was splashed with scarlet. He saw the broken stars in her eyes, and said sorry for the thousandth time in his heart - and also hid the words I like you that he had never said to his mouth. Mingqiu never believed in fate. She is a wild rose that breaks into the campus in the spring sunshine. She always wears fresh iris flowers on her ears. She dares to hold a transparent umbrella in front of Yan Qiqing in the heavy rain and say, senior, I am chasing you. She thought that as long as it was warm enough, she could heat up the isolated island where snow fell all year round. She remembered the coldness on his fingertips when he took the hot drink from her for the first time, the redness on the tips of his ears when he stuffed the gradient dream catcher into her palm, and the fireworks by the Chun River on New Year's Eve that fell on his eyelashes, like stars falling on her entire youth. She has even thought about giving him an iris necklace as an eighteenth birthday gift. The language of flowers is freedom and hope. She wants to go to the same university as him. She wants to pull him out of his dark past. She wants to tell him: Don't be afraid, I will accompany you. But autumn comes too quickly. All the next goodbyes ended with that muffled sound. She was a step late and only had time to catch his falling gaze and the unsent sorry message on her phone. Later, she got her wish and went to Shanghai to take the exam, and every autumn she would go to the cemetery to sit for a while. The wind would blow the sycamore leaves onto the tombstone, just like the kiss he once placed on the top of her hair, so light it made people want to cry.