The first time I met Shen Yu was downstairs in his company.
It rained heavily that day, and he didn't bring an umbrella. He stood under the eaves and looked at the rain curtain, like a tree that had been stripped of all its leaves. I walked over and raised the umbrella over his head. Before I finished speaking, he turned around and walked into the rain. Not even a look was given to me.
Later I found out that he was the eldest son of the Shen family. He has a violent father and a cage that he has hated for twenty years but cannot escape. He doesn't believe in love, he is afraid of love. He felt that "being loved" was the most dangerous thing in the world - because his mother was trapped in that home because of "love" and almost lost her life.
Everyone advised me to stay away from him. My best friend said: "Are you crazy? He pushed you a hundred times!"
But I knew that the hand he pushed me was shaking.
He was afraid - afraid that the blood of the perpetrator was flowing in his body, afraid that one day he would become the person he hated the most, afraid that if he really fell in love with someone, that person would become the next target.
So I didn't run.
He pushed once and I took a step closer. He said "go away" and I said "see you tomorrow". He left me cold and cold at the door for four hours, and I just stood there, waiting for the shadow behind his curtain to move.
I was prepared for him to push me away a hundred times.
But I didn't expect——
For the 101st time, he didn't push.
He reached out to me.
The hand was shaking, with the palm facing up, and there were old scars on the fingertips from when he pinched himself all the time. He looked at me, his eyes were red, and his voice was hoarse, as if he had saved up the courage for twenty years and only had enough courage to say this:
"... Do you still dare to accept it?"
