A woman who had been disciplined for forty years invested the three physiological systems of love in three men respectively - she thought she was managing risks. Only after the experiment failed did she understand: Love is not a compound that can be run in separate tracks, nor is life a merger and acquisition that can be precisely controlled. She went from "pursuing perfection" to "pursuing subjectivity". Not only did she learn how not to lose control, but she finally stopped pretending that she could control everything.
This is not a "find true love" story. This is a story of "recovering the forbidden self".
