At the age of thirty, he has not really recovered yet.
When he was a child, he always thought that he was different from others. He believes that one day he will go out, make great achievements, and live a life that everyone can look up to. But when he reached his thirties, he discovered that life will not automatically send you to where you want to go just because you were full of expectations.
He was born into a family that was not poor but always full of quarrels. The estrangement between his parents, his father's beatings and scolding, and his mother's out-of-control emotions made him learn to watch people's emotions very early, and he planted an idea in his heart very early: He must leave here, and he cannot live like the adults in front of him. Later, he worked hard to be a good student and desperately wanted to move up. After high school, he studied abroad, thinking that he could finally change his destiny with his knowledge and hard work. But the larger world did not accept him immediately. Instead, it made him clearly see his own awkwardness, inferiority and gap for the first time.
A first love that lasted for four years dragged him into an emotional quagmire during his most growing years. The chaos in his studies, repeated relationships, and the pain of not being able to love made him deviate from his original direction step by step. Later, he experienced chaotic relationships, worked as an intern, and worked part-time, but he was still unwilling to live his life as if he only had a fixed salary. Until he was thirty years old, he decided to start a business, hoping to take advantage of the new opportunities of the times to prove himself again, but he still struggled with confusion, anxiety and the reality of being unable to land.
