I was born barren, and love is a curse.
Before meeting Lu Jin, I cut off all warmth and was alone in the darkness.
After meeting him, I personally stole all his liveliness and enthusiasm, watching him transform from a high-spirited young man into a numb and hollow body.
If I push him away, I will owe my life; if I love him, I will ruin my life.
But he said he was willing to be destroyed by me.
The leaves of the sycamore tree fall, and youth comes to an end.
From then on, the world was full of fireworks, and he was no longer happy at all;
I wandered around the world for the rest of my life, feeling nothing but guilt.
There is no redemption, no reunion, no perfection, only a life of desolation and a life of debt.
