I was born barren of feeling, and love is a curse.
Before I met Lu Jin, I shut out all warmth and languished alone in the dark.
After I met him, I stole away all his passion and vitality with my own hands, watching him change from a spirited young man into a numb, hollow shell.
If I push him away, I’ll owe him for the rest of my life. If I love him, I’ll ruin his life.
But he said he was willing to let me destroy him.
The parasol leaves fell, and youth came to an end.
From then on, amid all the bustle and brightness of the world, he would never know joy again.
I would wander the world for the rest of my life, with nothing but endless remorse.
No redemption, no reunion, no happy ending. Only a lifetime of desolation and a debt I could never repay.
