She Was Edge-Case and Paranoid, Yet Healed My Frozen Heart

The world always regards the sensitive paranoia and emotional polarity reversal of BPD patients as willful and unreasonable troubles, and thinks that they are unstable and difficult to get along with. But no one knows that those sudden rages, unscrupulous words, self-mutilation that breaks down late at night, and anxiety about gains and losses are never bad natures, but scars left by lack of love and repeated abandonment in childhood. This was the case for Lin Nian. The neglect of her native family and the emotional manipulation and mental abuse of her predecessor Chen Xu made her suffer from the ultimate fear of being abandoned. She was used to pushing everyone away to protect herself. One second she was full of enthusiasm for love, the next second she was full of despair and self-denial. She struggled repeatedly between light and darkness, living a tired and broken life.