"After tomorrow, no one will remember you." His voice came from far away, "I can't give you a tombstone."
My tears have dried up.
I opened my mouth to say something, but my throat seemed to be blocked and no sound came out.
The operating room door closes. The doctor picked up the scalpel and the cold metal touched the skin of my chest. I could even feel the slight sting.
Don't... Don't...
I desperately wanted to open my eyes, shout, and struggle, but my body no longer obeyed. The anesthetic drug came up like sea water, and I sank deeper and deeper, and the light around me began to dim.
The scalpel cut away.
I didn't feel any pain when the first knife went in, but I knew it cut my skin. I can hear the sound of blood dripping on the ground, one drop, two drops, like a pendulum counting down.
Then I heard my own heartbeat.
Bang bang, bang bang, bang bang...
It feels sorry for me, because even it knows that it is about to be taken away.
It seems that I have never been truly loved by anyone in my life. When I was young, my parents divorced and no one wanted me, so I grew up alone. Later I met Fu Xuanmo. He let me live in his house, bought me clothes, and took me to dinner. I thought that was what I had finally waited for.
But it turned out that he was waiting for Su Nian.
His house, his tenderness, everything about him - they are just waiting for Su Nian to come back.
And I am just a substitute to fill up his time.
My heart beat again, very hard, as if saying goodbye to me.
Just when I thought I was about to lose consciousness completely, the shadowless light above the operating table suddenly flashed.
