Lu Shihan's funeral will be five days later. It was very foggy that day, and I stood at the door of the funeral home wearing black clothes, looking at his quiet face in the coffin. In his hand he held a gold earring—that was mine.
During the farewell ceremony, I secretly hid a handful of his ashes and put them in a small glass bottle that I brought with me. The bottle pressed against my ribs, like a still-beating heart.
Later, I locked myself in the room and cried for I don't know how long. In the dream, he said to me: "Xingxing, you have to live well and live my share."
So I started repeating my studies and got admitted to university. I scattered the remaining ashes on the top of Danxia Peak - the place where he said we would watch the sunrise together every year.
Now I wear two gold bracelets on my left wrist, one is a gift from him and the other contains him. In the next life, we must meet as soon as possible.
