Regrets for the Rest of My Life

In the spring of 1971, Fog Village in western Hunan. Shen Nianhe made the most important decision in his life - to promise himself to a widower from a neighboring county whose wife had died. It's not for myself, it's so that the "Black Category Five" kid who was sent down from Beijing can return to the city with peace of mind. She said on the eve of his departure: "It's not that I don't love you, it's that I love you so much that I can't hurt you." In the early morning when Lu Chenzhou left, she stood behind the door, listening to the sound of the donkey cart's bells getting farther and farther away. It was the longest morning of her life. What he didn't know was that his place to return to the city had already been replaced. In the spring when he left Wu Village, she stood at the door of her house all night. In the years that followed, he became a famous writer in the literary world, and all his published novels pointed to the same place - Wu Village. She washed clothes and collected herbs in a mountain village in western Hunan, provided for her younger brother to study, and raised her daughter. The only valuable thing in her hand was the book "Mountain Moon" written by him, which she could afford to read with rough edges. Ten years later, he finally had the ability to find her. He stood under the old locust tree at the entrance of the village all night, watching her fetching water from a distance, but never stepped forward. The day after he left, she burned the letter from him under a kerosene lamp and said to the person who sent it: "Tell Comrade Lu that Shen Nianhe is dead." She lied. When she died in that old house, she still held the book he wrote in her hand, and the words on the title page had been traced thousands of times with her fingers. "Regrets for the Rest of My Life" - a story about love, sacrifice and forty years of regret. Some people spend their whole lives loving someone, and then spend the rest of their lives repaying the regret of not being together. -