He squatted in the alley at the back door of the pet hospital, vomiting until he was in a daze. I had just finished sterilizing the last cat, and there was still some blood on my gloves, mixed with rainwater, and it was sticky between my fingers. He thought of the confused look in the cat's eyes when it woke up from anesthesia, and suddenly felt funny - you can live for at least a dozen years, where is I?