The Crossing at Forty: Giving Myself Back to Me

On a night when I was forty, I discovered that my husband had secretly lent someone fifty thousand yuan.

It wasn’t a lot of money, but suddenly I didn’t want to put up with it anymore.

In fifteen years of marriage, he had become less and less aware of me.

I’d been a dutiful daughter and older sister, a capable wife, an all-around mom...

But I’d never been myself.

This time, I’m going to give myself back to me.