Fuminodazai's Last Love Sacrifice

[Butei Zai Xiang Meng Nu Novel｜The background of the story is the author's own if line｜ooc warning] Melancholic and gloomy Dazai✖️Inferior self-esteem and sensitive Huaihuai Osamu Dazai said many times in his life, "Come die for love with me," but it has never been true. Until I met the girl named Huaihuai. Until he discovered that for the first time, he didn't want to drag anyone with him to die. But I want to try to live for someone. Fighting against the Five Declines of Heaven and Man, every step he takes is crushing his own bottom line. He pushed everyone ashore with a smile, and then sank back to the bottom of the sea alone - turning back to the way he was when he was fifteen years old: silent, melancholy, and not interested in living. He waited for a corner where no one would disturb him, for the right moment, and for finally having the courage to complete the suicide that had been delayed for many years. Until I met Huaihuai who came to entrust me. Even though he was targeted by a bully, he didn't cry. When he came to ask for help, he smiled cautiously and asked: Can the commission fee be paid for by baking cookies? Everyone thinks she is optimistic and cheerful. Only Osamu Dazai could see it - she was a drowning person just like him. But she chose to swim hard. And he chose to sink. ————— [This is the last time Dazai Osamu died for love. Not die with her. It was for her that I gave up and died.