In Dr. Qingbei's fifth year, Mu Yao lived like a shadow in the laboratory.
Ph. D. Supervisor Zhou Mingcheng squeezed her endlessly. She took on lateral subjects, ran errands, and took the blame. Her time was torn into pieces, and graduation became an unattainable luxury.
When she was desperate, she married Bu Yaojia, a junior at Jiangbei University of Technology, thinking she had caught the last piece of driftwood. But life after marriage is an even deeper purgatory.
The cramped rental house cannot hide the financial difficulties, and Bu Yaojia's PUA is like boiling a frog in warm water. "Everyone else can graduate, but you can't" and "You just don't have the ability" are all heartbreaking. Her mother-in-law's difficulties have become more difficult. Housework, accusations, and patriarchal prejudice have made her breathless.
The mentor's mental violence, her husband's indifference and harshness, and her mother-in-law's harshness were like three nets, trapping her tightly. She suffered from severe depression, suffered from insomnia all night, secretly hid antidepressants, and was even careful about breaking down.
The unexpected pregnancy was a glimmer of redemption, but it became the last straw that broke her back.
When she struggled repeatedly between the laboratory and the rental house, when the thoughts of self-harm became clearer and clearer, and when the bowl of Chinese medicine mixed with unknown things was placed in front of her, she finally understood: this marriage was a scam from the beginning.
She wrote three letters and left quietly.
Later, Bu Yaojia became famous, but always lived in regret; Mu Yao restarted her life in a small southern town, but her eyes no longer had the light they once had.
Yaoguang is broken, what is broken is youth, obsession, and the wrong love. Once some people miss it, they will never meet again. No crematorium, no forgiveness, no reunion, this is the ultimate sadomasochism about reality, depression and miss.
