It took me 38 years to understand: No matter how hard you struggle when you're always relying on others, you'll never earn their respect.
I'm a mother of three. I've spent my whole life being gentle, honest, and obedient, yet I've never had a say in anything at home, and no one has ever truly valued me.
To prove myself, to make others respect me, I gambled nearly 90,000 yuan in our family's savings, hoping to turn my life around.
But I was wrong. I lost every cent to a scam, and my family nearly fell apart.
My husband blamed me, my family looked down on me, and everyone called me stupid and useless, telling me to accept my fate.
At that moment, I wanted to die.
But when I looked at my three young children, I gritted my teeth and held on.
I used to be weak, always giving in and trying to please everyone.
From now on, I won't bow my head, accept my fate, or depend on anyone.
I'll dry my tears and put my weakness aside. I'll rely on myself
to win back, little by little, the dignity I lost and the life that was trampled into the dirt.
This time, I'll live for no one but myself and my children.
