She is a seed blown into a crack in the wall by the wind, and no one expects it to bloom.
In 1997, Qin Xiaoyu was born in a family that favored sons over daughters in southeastern Guizhou. Her birth brought no joy, only a sigh from her grandma. When her parents went out to work, she was left in the care of her grandmother. Under the aura of her cousin, she learned to be silent, give in, and swallow when she was hungry.
When I was five years old, my mother asked: "Do you want a sister?" She nodded and said "yes". When her sister arrived, she was pushed deeper into the shadows. Because she ate half a bowl of rice that her sister refused to eat, she was slapped like raindrops. From then on, the word "inferiority" was engraved into her bones.
In middle school, she was the shadow that always sat in the corner. Please everyone, but be laughed at by everyone. In her third year of junior high school, her only friend turned against her, and the boy she liked took the lead in bullying her. On the day she failed in the high school entrance examination, amidst her mother's insults, she heard another voice say for the first time: "She is not your mother."
The diagnosis says "schizophrenia." Taking medicine, gaining weight, and being unresponsive, she was like a wandering spirit during the three years of vocational high school. When she was in her senior year of high school, her mother said, "The universities you attend in the vocational college entrance examination are different." She tore up the registration form with her own hands - that was the second time she gave up on herself.
Walking into the provincial capital with 3,800 yuan in her pocket, she wanted to work as a salesperson to change her destiny, but she ran into obstacles everywhere. She wanted to be a clerk, but her mother sneered on the phone: "They want someone with a high degree of education and beauty, what do you have?" But fate gave her the only gift - she really became a clerk, with a monthly salary of 2,200 yuan, but it felt like she owned the whole world.
