When I was 22 years old, I graduated from a second college. With a few hundred yuan in my pocket, I followed my classmates to the provincial capital.
There is no golden finger, no noble person from heaven, only cockroaches in the clapboard room, the suffocating morning rush hour subway, a salary that is never enough, and myself who dare not cry out late at night.
I fell in love twice, once young and once seriously, but in the end I lost to reality and three views; I changed three jobs, from customer service to administration, from overtime to internal friction, and slowly learned to wear a mask to be a human being; I was forced to get married by my parents, compared with relatives, and left behind by my peers. I asked myself countless times on the verge of collapse: "Am I really useless?"
It wasn't until I was 27 that I finally stopped, stopped forcing myself to "must succeed", stopped trying to please everyone, and started learning to eat well, go to bed early and get up early, and make peace with myself.
I met Zhang Lei, a man who is not handsome, not rich, not romantic, but reliable and gentle. We went to the supermarket together, cooked together, and watched old movies together in a rental house. There was no excitement, only the company of a steady flow.
At the age of 30, I finally understood:
There is no shame in being ordinary, and it doesn't matter if you are ordinary.
Those days when I cried, tired, and struggled,
Those times of slowly healing in the smoke of fireworks,
This is the proof that I have truly grown up.
This is not a cool counterattack article.
This is just an ordinary girl, in ordinary days,
A story about slowly learning to love yourself and accept life.
Reader comments
It's quite beautiful. The world is full of joy, which is my favorite type. Some people often say that a room for two people, three meals for all seasons and a cat. This may seem like ordinary happiness, but I have been waiting for it for a long time. I wish you happiness until you grow old.
This book is very immersive. When I was young, I never rented a house, but I lived in a dormitory. The author made me travel through time and space instantly, as if I was back in time. Although the work was different, the feeling was so familiar, from school to hometown to work to dormitory... This is great, come on, author!
It's quite beautiful. The world is full of joy, which is my favorite type. Some people often say that a room for two people, three meals for all seasons and a cat. This may seem like ordinary happiness, but I have been waiting for it for a long time. I wish you happiness until you grow old.
This book is very immersive. When I was young, I never rented a house, but I lived in a dormitory. The author made me travel through time and space instantly, as if I was back in time. Although the work was different, the feeling was so familiar, from school to hometown to work to dormitory... This is great, come on, author!
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