They Call Me the Savior, but I Am the Evil God

[Urban Superpower + Top Fun Man Evil God + Crouching Dragon and Phoenix Teammate + I'm really not a human anymore] Other people's golden finger is the system/grandpa, and my golden finger... Is the evil "roommate" in my mind who PUAs me every day. I failed the postgraduate entrance examination and my girlfriend ran away. I thought my life was unlucky enough, until I was slapped in the face by a "civil servant" contract with a monthly salary of 50,000 yuan, seven insurances and two benefits. What's the price? I put my head in my waistband every day and play with my life against a group of monsters and cultists. Okay, for the sake of money, I will endure it! But who can tell me: Why do other people's superpowers destroy the world and destroy everything, but when I use my superpower once, I lose a little bit of my humanity? If I use it a few more times, I'm afraid it will look like braised pork. Why are other people's teammates magic weapons descending from the sky, while my teammates... Are a group of EMO youths who need me to provide psychological counseling before the war and write ideological reports after the war? The most outrageous thing is that while others fight monsters and level up, I fight monsters every day and my "roommate" CPU: "That's it? You haven't killed more people than the soap opera I watched yesterday." "If you had just listened to me, that monster would have knelt down and called you daddy just now." They all call me their savior. But my power comes from the evil god, my sanity is collapsing, and I keep jumping on the tightrope of humanity every day! Savior? Who the hell is going to save me!